Kairos

March Madness

2011-03-04T13:43:00.001-06:00

I just LOVE March Madness !! Basketball is my favorite sport and some of my favorite people just happen to play it :) I received an unexpected gift this morning of some UT LADY VOLS house slippers. We are currently in the TranSouth tournament at Union University. We're very fortunate that we have home court advantage !!
I'm excited about seeing some good players and teams March 16-22 at Oman Arena. NAIA here we come !! Vanguard Lady Lions,so excited about your return to TN !!

Katie's blog

2011-01-28T11:01:00.001-06:00

If you haven't read this blog www.kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com
then YOU MUST !!
She's an amazing young lady with an amazing story.
Disclaimer: you will never be the same again :)

I'm back !!

2010-11-21T16:11:00.002-06:00

Hey everyone !!! Surprise Surprise !! I'm back on my blog :) I hope to use this again to keep up with you all. LOTS been going on in my life. But,I'll have to save that for another post. I have to speak at a church thanksgiving service so I'm about to get ready for that. Say a prayer for me tonight please and i'll post again soon !!

Politically Correct

2009-07-16T02:42:00.003-06:00

I know this issue has been around for a while.I also know that alot of good things have happened out of an effort to be politically correct.I think that as of late we,as americans,have been more active in politics and in voicing our opinion about policies we do and do not like.I think it's GREAT and definitely better than being silent and not doing anything !!I've definitely become more involved and feel like I've learned so much from paying attention to what's going on in politics.I really have come to have a new appreciation for our democracy here in the US.Do I think it's perfect or infalliable? No ! But you only can improve something by actively seeking,noticing the weaknesses and then finding a solution to improve those weaknesses.
The one thing I've noticed lately though is the double standard of political correctness.Now,don't get me wrong.I appreciate free speech and think it's a GREAT right provided to us by our constitution.I just don't understand instances like the following 1)a guy named Guy Torry was on a radio show the other night (I just happened across it and don't know which one it was) and was talking about his family.He is one of 6.He said the following "we were like the bradys,more like the ghetto bradys".The group just chuckled and went on about their discussion 2)I was listening to news report on CNN about the New Haven,Conneticut fire fighters lawsuit.(This is quite a story actually if you haven't heard about it).What caught my attention though was the careful use of "african american" but then also "white" when referring to the color of the firefighters. I don't why it's ok for an african american to say certain things but let a caucasian say it and it's a HUGE deal.Senator Lindsey Graham made this exact point when questioning Judge Sotomayor today during the Senate confirmation hearing.Referring to her "wise latina" statement he said "If I had said something like that my head would have been on the chopping block".He's absolutely right !! When Don Imas called the Rutgers players "nappy headed" he was "crucified" in the media.But,one african american can say it to another african american,it's fine or a bad joke at best.I have NO issue with saying that some words are "taboo",insensitive and should be eliminated from our vocabulary.But,if we're going to do that,let's apply it across the board.This is also why I don't understand hate crime. To me a crime is a crime.You have to establish motive in any case and also look at the "mitigating" factors when sentencing someone.That's all a hate crime is doing.We're already doing that folks !! No need for hate crime legislation.It just seems to me that we're not using "politically correct" in the right way.We should use it to help make everyone equal and to discourage hurtful comments.Not just to help a certain group or minority feel better about themselves.
So,these are my thoughts and I just thought I'd share :)

GREAT QUOTE FRIDAY !!!!

2009-06-04T23:02:00.001-06:00

Life is what happens to you
While you're busy making other plans.
John Lennon
Beautiful Boy

California's ban on same sex marriage UPHELD !!

2009-05-26T11:31:00.002-06:00

I know this is a touchy subject.I certainly intend no offense and am actually one of the most unbiased/non prejudiced people you will meet.I have gay family members and friends and love them all :) So,let me just preface this post with that !!
California today upheld a ban on same sex marriage.I was VERY thankful to see this.
I know alot of people were upset and rightfully so.This is such an emotional subject and to have it constantly changed via law,etc makes the issue even that more difficult.
There are many legal same sex marriages who can't share that same joy with their best friends or family members due to the laws changing.That's hard I know. So,while I am very glad to see the ban upheld I'm not celebrating.These are people's lives and beliefs we are talking about here.This is seen as a slap in the face and a "belittling" (if you will) to same sex couples.Most gay people I know have fought for a LONG time to reconcile this issue within themself. Self esteem and relationships have been affected.Many gay people really struggle with who they are and why they are gay.It takes them a long time to come to a place where they can accept themselves for what they believe is how they are made.So,for someone to then say "who you are is wrong" is a VERY VERY hard pill to swallow.It's caused suicide,depression,divorce,etc. This is the message many people say a ban on same sex marriage says."You're not worthy"."You're not human" "You don't have rights",etc.
However,it is my belief that the approach many people have taken on this issue is the wrong one and VERY harmful !!
God loves each and every human.He CREATED each and every human.He has a will for each and every human.We were all created with special gifts and quirks. That's what makes God's creation so beautiful and diverse.However,along with all this beauty we were also given free will.We are vulnerable to temptation and sin.From porn,to anger,to gluttony,to murder,to lust,to envy, etc we ALL have sinful behavior and sinful tendencies. Homosexuality is among this list too.It's no worse than envy and just as conquerable. The Bible tells us that God will not tempt us beyond what we can bear and that God sent Jesus to be tempted too so we could relate to Him who was without sin. Being tempted is not sin.Succumbing to the temptation is the sin.
This is how I view homosexuality.And,because I do have this view,any measures we can take to prevent temptation or condone sin is welcome by me :) Just as I welcome higher taxes on cigarettes,drinking laws,prison terms,church discipline,etc. I'm just really starting to study and ponder just how much sin is in each of our lives.Believe me,I have my share of mine :) And,YES,I give in at times.But I also have the Holy Spirit reminding me of God's word and take actions so try to keep temptation at bay.
So,this is why I'm glad the ban on same sex marriage was upheld !!It's certainly not the only issue America should be looking at and not the only thing I want to see banned.It's just a start and you have to start somewhere :)

Great Quote Friday !!!!

2009-05-22T11:25:00.002-06:00

Hey everyone ! I was reading a friend's blog and she was talking about a quote that inspired her.She then asked people to share their favorite quotes.I have actually started a book of quotes as I LOVE them :) So,I thought I'd start GREAT QUOTE FRIDAY on here ! I'll begin with a few quotes and then you can comment and share yours.
From now one,Fridays will be devoted to sharing a quote.(I'm doing multiple today just because I'm that excited !!). Hope you enjoy these and don't forget to share one of your own. TGIF !!!

1) "Preach the gospel at all times...and when necessary, use words." St. Francis of Assisi

2)"A daily recommitment is not to ensure that we’ll never fail, but to help us develop the mentality that every day is a new day. A new chance to follow Christ. Obedience to God is not some diet we suddenly blow. It is something to which we recommit every single day, no matter how we blew it the day before. Victorious living is not an instant arrival. It is the pursuit of one victorious day at a time until the sun sets on enough to begin forming victorious habits." - Beth Moore

3)Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one!'

- C.S. Lewis

4)"A single gal's walk is never easy but it's much better in a GREAT pair of shoes !"
- Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and the City)

2009-05-21T22:36:00.002-06:00

This is a video of a song sung in Swahili.It's one of my all time favorites !!LAtely,I've been really burdened with reaching out to people with different culture backgrounds than myself and this was an encouragement to me :)

p.s. There may be a prize for the first person to post the name of this song in my comments :)

Me too !! Me too !!

2009-05-09T20:25:00.004-06:00

Gosh,didn't realize it'd been so long since I posted.I guess I got busy celebrating my birthday :) I'm SOOOOO glad warmer weather is here even if it is rainy.Life is pretty good for me lately.I am truly blessed and try to remember that every day !!

One of the things that has made life bearable lately is all the people in my life that seem to be saying "me too!!".People are willing to listen to me and "carry my burden with me" and also to comfort me and say "me too!!" or "been there done that".
Authenticity is precious and I'm very thankful for it.Having someone who has had the same or similar situation as yourself is a Godsend.Even if you are celebrating,having someone who is excited for you or with you is AWESOME !! I've also been able to be the one to say "me too!!" lately.One example is with a lady I don't know personally whose 5 month old son is suffering from SVT (superventricular tachycardia).He had the same surgery performed that I did in 11/2002.I've been able to encourage a very special christian lady by being willing to "be an outsider looking in" and offer advice to her on her life and home.I've talked with a friend who is having emotional ups and downs and say "me too!!" as I went through the same thing last spring.I've been VERY VERY encouraged by others as we share common family dynamics.I've enjoyed coffee with a fellow church member as we've shared the same vision for a ministry at church. FUN and PRECIOUS times indeed !!!!!
So,I share this to ask 2 things of you. 1)share with me times in your life where "me too!" has meant something to you and 2)be willing to be authentic enough to be a "me too!" person or to ask for a "me too!" person. What an amazing thing when 2 or more with a similar experience can get together and help each other !!

Refreshing (a repost from a friend)

2009-04-17T09:14:00.002-06:00

*** I'd actually been thinking about this very topic when I read my friend's blog.She puts it so eloquently so I decided to "steal" her post :) I'd love to hear what you do to "refresh" yourself !! In the meantime,I think there's a pond about a 1/2 mile from me calling my name :) ****

Refreshing April 16, 2009
Filed under: Laura — Laura @ 10:54 pm
Tags: Danny & Laura

Refreshing…we all need it sometimes. Typically we think of a dip in the pool or a cold coke (at least in my family) on a warm afternoon,coca-cola-mom-and-daughter when we think of things that are refreshing. And those things are physically refreshing, but just like we have days where we need something cool to refresh us physically, we also have days where we need more of a combination of emotional, spiritual, and physical refreshing.

I personally have been discovering (in some cases rediscovering) what provides the refreshing I need to live life vibrantly. Our life, as you know, has undergone many changes over the past month and will continue to as we work toward getting settled in our new community. With those changes I’ve found that the type of refreshing I need changes. I’ve had more time on my hands in some areas and less in others, providing for new needs and opportunities for refreshing. So I thought I would share what some of those have been, and maybe you will find some new ideas or be able to say “amen!” to the ones you’ve also found refreshing for you emotionally, spiritually, and physically, or even share some things I haven’t mentioned. Like I said, a new season of life has brought new needs for/means of refreshing so my ideas may not fit you now or ever, and vice versa, but then again they may be helpful. And of course, they are not all inclusive!

Recent “refreshments” in my life:

* Getting at least 8 hours of sleep each night (going to be early or sleeping in later)
* Spending time reading various Psalms in the bible and meditating on them.
* Going to a coffee shop to hang out for a few hours.
* Taking walks around the neighborhood with my husband in the evenings.
* Crocheting…having a crafty project I can pick up and put down easily, and transport without a hassle (often to the coffee shop).
* Reading, for the sake of relaxing and/or learning, just because I can.
* Sitting on a bench and watching the boats go by on the Intracoastal Waterway in the evenings with Danny.
* Volunteering at church/serving alongside Danny…putting up bulletin boards and helping him lead chapel for the preschool. Simple, yet needed.
* Occasionally taking Sadie (my family’s dog) for an afternoon walk…this is refreshing when there aren’t other dogs out because she tends to want to eat them…or at least it sounds like she does (hence walking in the afternoon)

Palm Sunday

2009-04-05T12:22:00.001-06:00

Why we recognize a day called “Palm Sunday”…..
John 12: 9- 18

9 When the large crowd of the Jews learned that Jesus [4] was there, they came, not only on account of him but also to see Lazarus, whom he had raised from the dead. 10 So the chief priests made plans to put Lazarus to death as well, 11 because on account of him many of the Jews were going away and believing in Jesus.

12 The next day the large crowd that had come to the feast heard that Jesus was coming to Jerusalem. 13 So they took branches of palm trees and went out to meet him, crying out, “Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord, even the King of Israel!” 14 And Jesus found a young donkey and sat on it, just as it is written,

15 “Fear not, daughter of Zion;
behold, your king is coming,
sitting on a donkey\’s colt!”

16 His disciples did not understand these things at first, but when Jesus was glorified, then they remembered that these things had been written about him and had been done to him. 17 The crowd that had been with him when he called Lazarus out of the tomb and raised him from the dead continued to bear witness. 18 The reason why the crowd went to meet him was that they heard he had done this sign.

Stellan McKinney

2009-04-01T10:18:00.000-06:00

http://www.mycharmingkids.net/

This is the blog of a precious "sister in Christ" !! Her little baby boy has been battling SVT even before he was born.Since I also had SVT,this story especially touches me.However,I DARE you to come away from her blog not being moved at Stellan's story and his "travels" :) Jump on over and take a look !!!

India on my mind

2009-03-25T22:02:00.003-06:00

I've had India on my mind for some time now.Main reason is because I have some dear friends serving there.They are about to have a baby and I just see their heart for the country of India.They love the Indian people and its culture.I also know of a fellow blogger about to travel in May to India and a friend who leaves this week for India to dig wells for drinking water.This person is also beginning the process to adopt a child from India.So this has alot to do with why India is on my mind.But I also think alot about culture and diversity.For some reason when I see the people of India and their culture it just seems soooo different than mine.It is the best example I see of how another country is so different than mine.I question myself all the time about how "americanized" I am.I have not had the privilege to travel outside of the US but know MANY people who have.I've seen TONS of pictures,videos,etc from many different countries and also have crafts,clothing,etc from these countries.I treasure each and every item I have from another country. I think there is MUCH to be learned from other cultures and pray that I remain open to that knowledge as long as I live.
Do you have any thoughts or comments? Do you have a story about traveling to another country you'd like to share? Do you have pics to share? I love pics :)
I'd love to hear anyone's story !!

What's your self indulgence?

2009-03-06T00:23:00.003-06:00

With the release of "Confessions of a Shopaholic",the state of the economy and just personal life situations I've been in lately,I've started thinking about just how self indulgent I can be.Don't worry this isn't going to be a "soapbox" type of post.I've just wondered just exactly what people's self indulgences are and if they've had to cut back on them lately.I saw on tv the other day that some people don't see how they could go shopping at the grocery store only once a month or even once a week.Luckily for me,when I was working and getting paid bimonthly,I went shopping bimonthly. I'm a coupon queen and would be even better if I had the storage space for extra groceries.But,I'm also the same person who gets something on her brain and JUST HAS TO HAVE IT !! It's a bad trait of mine I've had for years.I've started getting smart and asking for such things at christmas,birthday,etc.I used to work overtime alot and would know how much I made on a Saturday working.Then I'd think to myself well,that just paid the utility bill or paid for those shoes I've been wanting.I moved last fall and realized just how much junk (and I do mean junk) I'd accumulated.What I found most interesting is I found a handful of things I just HAD to have and never opened them.To this day,I have 2 pairs of shoes in my closet and a purse that I've never worn or used. So,just wondering if all my readers out there could relate and had a story of their own they wanted to share. I gave up getting my nails done and a few things like that since I'm not currently working.Have you had to downsize a little and if so what have you given up?

A tale of two Americas.....................

2009-02-26T12:38:00.003-06:00

"I have alot of things I should be thinking about none of which should be how am I going to pay for college" stated the college student on a CNN story I just saw.She was talking about how she couldn't afford to continue her education at the University of Hartford as financial aid wasn't available and she didn't have the money to pay for it.The piece also mentioned another college student whose parents didn't have good enough credit to get student loans to afford for him to continue college.He was going to take a year off,work,save and go back to college.
This was a great example of something I've been thinking about.Big government vs. personal responsibility.Both of these college students talked like they expected the government (or someone) to help them out.Should I mention that the young woman had excellent grades and perhaps it's not her fault that the financial aid isn't there.It could be another result of the economic situation we're in.The young man has nothing to do with his parent's credit so should he suffer?BUT,who's to say it's their responsibility to put him through college anyway?
I was VERY blessed that my parents helped me through my bachelor's degree and saw them sacrifice alot to do that.Don't think I forget that for one second !!!
So,the question is this? Where does the government fit into this?Where does personal responsibility fit in? I saw my mom work full time AND attend college full time while raising me and my sister.My dad just retired after 36 years at the same company that provided the stability as far as paycheck,insurance,etc our family needed.My family is where it is today because of what my mom and dad did.Praise God for great parents.The thing is that not everyone is blessed like that.You have grandparents raising children,orphans,single parent families,etc that may not be able to do what my parents did.Yet,some can and choose not to !!! Let's say you have a mother who has child after child despite being able to care for the ones she has.Statistics say these children won't succeed and will barely graduate high school if they do.So,what about them?Do we punish them for their mom's behavior? What about a single teen who has a baby out of wedlock but wants to fulfill her dream for college? Should she be helped by the government? My mom wasn't.Yes she had my dad but that was her only help.We were dropped off at babysitters and sometimes had to go back to work with mom once she picked us up from school.
Let's look at another aspect of government help. Now,keep in mind,I'm a former governmental employee who worked directly with families on welfare,food stamps,medicaid.I saw these stories first hand and know many of their names.I had some families I worked with the entire 7 years I was at DHS.Also,I've benefited from a governmental program to return to school.I will be directly impacted by Prez Obama's stimulus plan.So,I've seen both sides of this issue.The biggest problem with government right now is that it's ineffective at times and VERY VERY poorly managed.
But this could be easily solved with better communication,technology and more employees.So,do we continue to let the government be as it always has?or do we send messages through our senators/representatives that we expect more out of our government? Do we fight to the death for private businesses/colleges?Are we better served in the private sector? Personally,I think so.But,that doesn't mean the BIG government couldn't be as effective as the private sector.
So,I just wanted to throw this out there as food for thought !! I'd love to hear from you and read your thoughts :)

Down by the Creek Bank !!!

2009-02-21T21:22:00.001-06:00

As a child,there was a musical we did at church called "Down by the Creek Bank".Do any of you know it/remember it? I am fortunate enough to have the tape of it :) I was just wondering what was your favorite song/memory from that musical if you were lucky enough to do it !!!

STARBUCKS ! STARBUCKS ! STARBUCKS !!

2009-02-12T23:10:00.002-06:00

YUM !!! I love me some Starbucks :) So,what I want to know is what is your favorite drink? There are some that aren't even listed on the menu so I'm especially interested in those.Do you have a favorite starbucks memory too? A group of friends and I would hang out outside playing board games while sipping our drinks.Fun times !!
So,all you readers out there share with me :)

Looking for a Miracle?

2009-02-10T17:27:00.003-06:00

I was watching President Obama's town hall meeting this morning and was intrigued.I was proud to see Americans asking tough questions of the President and coming out to voice their thoughts,comments,etc.Now we can talk about whether he answered their questions or not and if people should be looking to government or not. I certainly welcome that discussion if you so desire.But what I thought I would comment on is the way people were looking at the President to perform "miracles".I am really thinking about the lady who needed help.She was unemployed and homeless.Once she was picked to ask the President a question you could see her excitement.She then proceeded to tell the President of her troubles (which alot of people face) and simply looked at him and said "please help". She was in tears.The President was very affectionate and gracious to her.I thank the Lord for that !! You could tell that she knew that if she could just talk to the President he could do something for her.She was in sheer disbelief that she was actually getting to speak to him. My mind instantly thought of the story from Scripture of the lady who knew she could be healed by just touching Jesus'garment.She was healed and He felt her touch the hem of His garment when there were many people surrounding Him.(Mark 5:25-31).It was a miracle in His time.So,my question is this? Do you still believe in modern day miracles? if you do,who do you look to for those miracles to be performed? The lady today believed the President would do something for her.She believed that if she could just talk with him then all would be fine.She acted out in faith and attended the rally with a slim chance she would actually get to talk to him.She went anyway.How amazing is it that as a christian we can talk to God anytime and KNOW that He cares and can/will provide.May God bless this lady I saw today and may we all as Americans be reminded that God can provide and never forget His supreme authority !!!!!

Adoption and the Family Circus !!!!

2009-01-30T22:37:00.004-06:00

I love the Family Circus comic strip for SOOOO many reasons !! The above comic strip is just one of them. Adoption is near and dear to my heart for a few reasons. One is that I know I'll probably have to adopt in order to be a momma.Also,I have so many friends lately who have adopted and have been blessed by that process.So,I thought
I'd share this with them :) Adoption is a hard decision to make.It's hard for the biological parents to give up their child.They are VERY brave to make that decision.
I will always believe it's a much better alternative then abortion.Also,it's a chance to bless another family who wants that child so much.I will ALWAYS be a HUGE supporter of adoption !!! I'm willing to talk to you about it if you'd like or hear a story you might like to share about adoption.Life is precious,life is sweet !!! Know you are loved :)

Basketball vs. Life

2009-01-30T00:45:00.002-06:00

Tonight I got to watch one of the most thrilling and entertaining basketball games of my life ! It was thrilling as each team really was really challenged by the other and it ended up being an 88-78 game. There were 3 things that really stuck out at me about this game that I thought I'd share. First of all,the home team really pressured the visiting team and SEVERAL times kept them from coming across mid court or being able to pass in the ball from out of bounds to another player.It was INTENSE pressure.I thought about times in our lives when we're like that.We can't move or we can't find someone to share our burdens with.We can have all the plans in the world or all the right motives in the world but if we can't take that first step to make it happen then it's all in vain.Have you ever had a time when you felt so paralyzed or pressured? I know I have. Secondly,the visiting team's coach at one point got so mad he threw the play board down on the ground and appeared to smash it into pieces.Later I heard him say he didn't break it,that a pen went up in the air as he hurled it at the ground.You could see the look in the player's eyes.They KNEW he was upset (he normally isn't like that !) and after the game was over they'd won but were still upset for letting coach down and not playing to the best of their ability. I thought about 2 things in this scenerio.I thought about the coach who hurled the play board.I'm pretty sure he regretted doing it.It really upset the girls I believe.But,no matter how much he might apologize for it later,etc he can't take it back.I thought about how our words,actions,etc can have a lasting impact on someone.I KNOW some of you have a story you could share about how someone's actions/words affected you either positively or negatively.You could also share about how you've wished you could take back something you said or did. I'd LOVE to hear these :) I also thought about sometimes it takes a coach getting mad at players to get them to do what He wants.I wonder if God feels this way about me sometimes.Does He have to yell,scream,shout,blow sticks of dynamite,send a catastrophe,etc into my life before I do His will? Or am I constantly looking to Him for guidance and then following His commands? I have MANY a story I'm sad to say where God had to hurl a play board at me. What about you? Again,I'd love to hear your story. If you're still with me :) the last thing I'd like to share is about the home team's coach.He was HILARIOUS and was so fun to watch !! I still can't believe he wasn't called on a technical for being out on the floor. He was the MOST enthused coach I've ever seen.It was almost as if he was playing the game himself !! His body would move with whatever his player was doing (if she was shooting so was he,if they were running down the court so was he).It really was a sight to see.He was doing it in such a "cheerleading" sort of a way. I thought about how we need people like that as we play this game of life.We need people around us feeling what we feel,seeing what we see,experiencing what we're experiencing.We need them supporting us.We need them coaching us.
I know this is ALOT of thinking on my part from just a basketball game :) hehe
I really did watch the game and enjoy myself.I thought about most of this while on the way home.But,I could definitely see the parallels so I thought I'd just share my thoughts.I'd love input from any of you on what I've said and may you never look at another basketball the same again :)

Warmly,
Alicia

Wisdom of a 4 yr old !!

2009-01-18T22:57:00.002-06:00

I bet you think I'm going to say something about my niece Madelyn.She's only 3 1/2 though so no.This is about a little boy named Hayden. His family is in my small group at church.His mom and I were sitting with him tonight eating supper before bible study.Let me say that I love the whole family so I was having a good time already.We were eating salad and Hayden asked if I liked talking to tomatoes.He said he talked to Bob the tomato from VeggieTales.He then asked me if I'd ever met Bob. I told him that my favorite was Larry the Cucumber.So you get the drift.We're having fun and I'm enjoying the company of this precious 4 year old. Then all the sudden he looks at me and says "Do you love yourself?".I said "yes I do" and he said "good I do too !".
Talk about a moment !! I'm assuming his parents have been talking to him about this subject but it truly was as if God was speaking to me. I battled self esteem issues back in middle school and high school.I finally won the war on it but it does creep back up every once in a blue moon. I've actually been thinking on self esteem issues recently with some things going on with me and within my family too. So,this my friends was one of those "KAIROS" moments for which I named my blog !! Don't let little moments in life pass you by because you're so busy or unfocused. Each day is a gift and can be a new beginning if you need it to be.Be in tune with yourself enough to know when someone or something is speaking to your heart !! It'll be the most wonderful words you'll ever hear :)
Do you have a moment like this you'd like to share? I'm sure there are lots of stories like this out there.So,share with me ! I'd love to hear them :)

audrey caroline

2009-01-09T23:16:00.002-06:00

I can't believe I haven't mentioned this before in my blogs. I began following the story of Todd Smith from Selah (the christian musical group) a while back.This story of his daughter Audrey is AMAZING !!! Angie (todd's wife) found out before birth that Audrey would not live.She did manage to give birth to her and they spent about 2 hours with her before she died.Angie has been blogging about this ever since they found out Audrey's diagnosis.Well,she has just created a video that is a MUST SEE !!!
It is hard to watch but tells a story like nothing else. So,please indulge me :)

"Life is precious,life is sweet!" -----Steven Curtis Chapman

Sweet Audrey-Girl from angie smith on Vimeo.

A Twist on a New Year's Resolution

2008-12-21T13:17:00.003-06:00

I never do stick to my New Year's Resolutions because I always seem to make more of a "bucket" list then a New Year's Resolution.so,I have 1 goal for 2009.That should make it easy for me to remember and to accomplish :) but,I felt like sharing with you my list of things I want to do before I die. So,here it is..............

Top 10 Things I want to accomplish in my life:

1. travel to Italy
2.lead someone to Christ
3.own a pair of Manolo Blahnik shoes
4.give at least $1000 to charity
5.purchase a GREAT piece of art
6.own a circle pendant necklace
7.get my weight down to ideal BMI (body mass index) and maintain it
8.run a marathon
9.be involved with my nieces as they grow up
10.live in Hawaii

Please share with me your New Year's Resolution or your "bucket" list !!!!

God bless you and Happy 2009 !!!!!

Christmas Quiz

2008-12-10T22:57:00.003-06:00

I stole this from another blog but thought it was a GREAT christmas quiz. I'll answer under each question and I can't wait to read your comments :) Merry Christmas Beloved !!!!

1)Fresh Tree or Fake Tree? we always had fake ones due to allergies so I'd have to say fake.I do love the smell of pine though in a home with a fresh tree :)

2. Favorite Ornament?
I'd have to say the Angel ball that my BFF got me a few years back

3. Favorite Christmas Song? Wow this is the hardest because christmas music is my fave but I'd have to say "O come all ye faithful"
A VERY close second is one called "A King is Born" that's on my WOW christmas cd.

4. Favorite Tradition? Making chex mix and sugar cookies with my mom

5. Favorite Gift Ever Received?I'd have to say a max lucado book and a poem that one of clients gave me.She was very special to me and I still see her out and about to this day

6. Favorite Christmas Meal? ham,corn pudding,broccoli,pecan pie

7. Favorite Christmas Cookie? no doubt my mom's sugar cookies that we ice and sprinkle.They are in the shape of snowman,candy cane,christmas tree,etc. A VERY close second comes the gingerbread man :)

8. Favorite Place To Be?wherever my family is

9. Favorite Memory? when we were really little,we lived near a tv station tower that had red lights on it.You've all seen them :) Well when we'd get home from my dad's parents on christmas eve we'd see the red light and daddy would always tell us that was rudolph's nose and we better hurry to bed because he was close to our house ! (Don't ask me how we never figured out that the red light was there all year round and there were more than 1 red light glowing.It was just magical to us ! )

10. Favorite Christmas Movie? haha if you know me at all you know it's "A Christmas Story" !!!!

My favorite Christmas Carol :)

2008-12-10T17:29:00.000-06:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING DAY !!!!

2008-11-27T09:22:00.002-06:00

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone !!! I hope you feel blessed beyond measure and are ready to celebrate.To help me get into the spirit of the day,I decided to do a "TOP 10" list of things I am thankful for. Feel free to do your own as well and then share with me :)

TOP 10 REASONS I AM THANKFUL :

10) family who makes me laugh and is encouraging
9) friends who have impacted my life eternally and have been with me for YEARS !!!
8) beloved families I know serving overseas to spread THE WORD
7) chocolate ('nuf said!)
6) my 2 beautiful and precious nieces
5) my church home and family
4) the gift of life (lots of pregnant women in my life right now )and the reminder it's been 6 years this week since I had heart surgery
3) technology which allows me to keep in touch with SOOO many people
2) the turkey I am currently smelling cooking in the oven that will be DELICIOUS !! haha
1) the Lord Almighty who saves us and desires to have a relationship with us

Life and Family

2008-11-13T14:50:00.003-06:00

Lately,I've been hearing LOTS of stories about pregnancies/babies and families. Just this morning it was announced that the "pregnant man" is now pregnant again.all this week I've been closely monitoring a blog of a family who traveled from Nashville to New Jersey to adopt a little girl who will be born via c-section tomorrow.
I have a DEAR friend of mine who just found out that her baby most likely has Trisomy 13 and will not make it to birth or will die shortly after.At LEAST 2 friends of mine found out the sexes of their babies this week.Another dear friend is pregnant and trying to protect herself from her daughter who has scarlet fever. These are just a few examples that come to mind right now but there are many more believe me ! So,I just got to thinking.With all this love and effort to bring healthy babies into the world how could anyone not say life begins at conception and discourage abortion? I know of TONS of families trying to adopt and willing to give good homes to children.Also,so many people go through fertility treatments,in-vitro,surrogacy,etc just to have a child. Doesn't that say something? I'm really not trying to be judgemental here.REally !! I also wonder why so many couples go through so much just to have a child when they could adopt.I'm just sharing my thoughts and also inviting input,comments,etc. All of this also lends me to think about what is the definition of family? I'd REALLY love to hear your comments on this.My gut is to say that family is blood relatives but I don't think of adoptive parents or children as any less than a family.I'd say it's a mommy,daddy and their children but a couple is a family with or without children.My sister and I are family but she also has her "own" family with her husband and children.So let's hear it readers out there.What is the definition of family? Also,and more importantly,let's look at the legal side of this.If we give family a solid definition,what impact legally does that have? If it has to be family members for visitation at the hospital then what? If family is privileged to some crime information others aren't who does that include? Just food for thought and can't wait to hear what some of you say :)

Election Day !!!!

2008-11-04T12:27:00.003-06:00

YAY !!! It's here !!! Whooo Hooo :) hope you all got out and voted.I'm at home today loving the opportunity to watch all the coverage on TV.I'm in AWE over how many people have early voted and are voting today. Way to go Americans !!! I have to say that no matter who wins my heart's cry is from the song "America the BEAUTIFUL".

"America,America, God shed His grace on thee.And crown thy good with brotherhood from sea to shining sea"

GOD BLESS AMERICA !!!

Sarah Palin on special needs children

2008-11-01T19:25:00.000-06:00

Who moved?

2008-10-24T21:19:00.002-06:00

I have to confess that lately I've felt distant from God.I haven't heard His voice.Now,I've seen His provision but nothing else.I don't know if the times I've had where I sensed God's presence so strongly are rare or something I should be expecting everyday.Is it just a kindness of His that I am able to "feel" Him? Should I be concerned if I don't consistently? There's an old cliche that says "If you feel far away from God,guess who moved? It wasn't God!"I'd love for my readers to offer their input.I'm fighting for my relationship with God and tend to think that being able to "feel" God throughout my day is something I should be obtaining to.But,I'm open to thought,suggestions,etc.I'd love for you to share your experience with this (if you've had one) and verses,quotes,etc that you'd love to share with me :)

Sweet Fellowship :)

2008-10-11T10:28:00.004-06:00

Last night after a busy stressful week at work,I headed straight over to the Brooks' house for a cookout/fellowship.It was much needed in so many ways.It was SOOOOO good to enjoy some AMAZING chili and smores over the campfire. It was soooo great to just relax and enjoy the fire and outdoors.It was also soooo good to be with my church family.they are so important to me and are used by God in my life in soooo many ways.I forget sometimes just how important the body of Christ is to a christian.It takes sacrifice and committment to have fellowship.That's why it's so important.I missed the past two weeks of church activities due to moving and being sick.I have however been able to e-mail a couple of ladies at church who have invested me in.They have been praying for me and I have felt those prayers.Because of the fellowship I have with my church family I never feel alone.I go to work every day feeling them with me as I know they are thinking of me just as I am them.That encourages me and uplifts my spirit soooo much.That is what the body of Christ is meant to do.So I feel sooooo blessed to have fellow christians that believe in fellowship as I do.One question many people ask is "Why do I have to attend church?"
"Why can't my relationship with God just be between me and Him?" This is the reason why.We were created for fellowship and it's where God can use the body of Christ most.

Peace Out !!

2008-10-09T22:00:00.002-06:00

I am FINALLY feeling better after recovering from my cold/virus.Thanks to all of you who were praying. I have had SOOOO much going on lately that it's a wonder I haven't been committed to a mental hospital.I moved,was VERY sick and am facing a possibility of losing my job. For some one who battles anxiety and has to have meds/therapy for it you would think this would have done me in. BUT,my God is FAITHFUL !! He's been everything I needed during this time.It's kind of funny as I've been so busy literally that I haven't been able to talk to many people or see my therapist about any of this.I just a few days ago told my dad and tonight told my mom. I think it was as if God wanted it to be just me and Him.Normally this kind of stress would have been too much but for the most part i've had such peace.PEACE PEACE PEACE !!! Jesus is the Prince of Peace after all. Peace that God is in control.Peace that God's will can and will prevail.Peace that I'll be fine financially.Peace that I've given it my best.Peace in my Spirit.Peace of mind !!!! I don't know what will happen with my job but I rest soundly tonight knowing it'll all be ok. I know that I'm fortunate to be able to say this.Please don't think that I haven't had my moments of worry and stress.That's what makes this such an exciting thing.I usually would've pulled my hair out by now.However,i've learned that God will take care of me AND I've learned the power of God's Truth. I'd love to discuss any details if anyone wants to know.I just say this to encourage anyone who might need it.It's become kinda "cliche" to say "God is in control" but He really is.If we really believe this how differently do we feel and act?

just rambling

2008-10-05T18:21:00.002-06:00

I've been sick for a few days now.Can I just tell you I HATE being sick !!! I am praying that i'm finally on the mend.I go back to work tomorrow and need all the mental and physical strength I can get.I have enjoyed the downtime though and just being able to snuggle in my bed. It's been much needed.When I've felt up to it i've been thinking about God and talking to Him lately.I hate to admit that I've put Him on the back burner the past few weeks with my move and stressful job situation. As usual though,I've been on His mind all this time.God is FAITHFUL !!! He reminded me the past few days of some of His characteristics. First of all that He is FAITHFUL !!! He has not left my side for one moment during these past few weeks when I didn't feel Him or sense Him.He's been right there.(As a side not because of this He already knows what's been going on so when I pray nothing is a surprise to Him and nothing is unknown to Him). God is also the REDEEMER !!! I was reminded today of someone who has come back into my life who I knew in high school.This guy had quite a reputation back in the day and I still cant' put that past me even today. God had to remind me that Yes,He can and does redeeem people's pasts and restores their future.I don't see any potential in this guy but God does !!! Praise God that He sees us as NO ONE else does :)
Last thing God has been reminding me of is that He is my PORTION !!! He is all I need and then provides for all my needs.He knows it all (see earlier in my blog) and wants to move in our lives in some mighty big ways.I don't always believe this though as my prayer life shows that.I don't hand things over to Him as if He's the Almighty !!! If I truly believe He's sovereign,omnipotent,etc than who better to give my life to and to give my day to day life to.He's already there and already knows.So,why not invite Him to be there and to work in ways only He can. That is my prayer tonight that I won't forget who God is and what He can do in my life !!!!!!

Home Sweet Home !!!!

2008-09-28T19:41:00.002-06:00

I've finally done it !!! I have moved to my new place :) HALLELUJAH !!!!
I love my new back deck and my walk in closet.Not to mention that I have a new bed and it is soooooo comfortable.I'm sleeping so well which is much needed. I think this new place is going to be more inviting and comfortable for me.Lord knows I need it as stressful as work is.I need a place of retreat.
So,just wanted to let you know I'm alive and back online :) haha

An Exodus of sorts

2008-09-13T19:05:00.002-06:00

I think it's not coincidental that my ladies' group is starting the book of Exodus monday night.I'm so excited and can't wait to see how God is going to work during this time.I don't think it's coincidental as I'm personally going through an exodus of sorts.It will end in early october which is perfect as the fall is my favorite time of year. I wll be moving in two weeks and it's going to be a journey to pick up and move.i see what God's got in store in the future but it's going to be a trying time while I move.I also am having a VERY stressful time at work.I'm learning to handle it better though so I think over time that'll get better too.So,as I'm going through this time of transition I'm thankful for the times of "exodus" in our lives.It's a VERY hard time but it's also necessary to leave old places,people and habits and to reach towards the promise land God has for you :)

Packing,Packing and More Packing !!!!!

2008-09-06T19:42:00.002-06:00

I now know why I used to move once a year once I got out of college.It kept me from accumulating a bunch of crap !! I move at the end of this month and it's going to take me that long to get everything sorted and packed.My job is very busy too so that doesn't help matters either.My internet will be down for a couple of weeks too so forgive me if I don't post or answer e-mails,etc. I'll repost again once I get settled in my new place.Say a little prayer for me over the next few weeks and I'll talk to you soon :)

A VERY LONG HOT SUMMER !!!!

2008-08-24T18:58:00.002-06:00

Hey everyone ! I feel like that since we're no longer in the 90's around here that I can say summer is gone :) I can also tell you I've had alot of sweat and tears throughout this summer.I've really struggled emotionally with alot of things.I'm continuing to work out my finances,I've seen my boss be off for 2 months now due to a car wreck,I've had 2 people move in with me and I've celebrated LOTS of birthdays.Oh and all that on top of having an EXTREMELY busy job.It's not quite as tense as usual but it certainly is BUSY !!!! Many prayers in that area would be greatly appreciated.
I'm about to move into a co-workers house and am very excited.It's been a VERY hard decision to make but I think it's best for me financially and emotionally.
One thing I can say is that God is GOOD ALL THE TIME !!!! and I'm a witness to that.
I'm excited about what the next few months hold and i'll keep you posted :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA !!!!!

2008-08-21T19:05:00.003-06:00

My niece Anna turned 1 years old on 8/15/2008.This year has flown by!! Anna is such a sweet soul :) She's also a comedian.She just busts out laughing for no reason and LOVES making funny faces at you.I'm very anxious to get to know her even better and interact with her more as she begins to walk and talk.Anna also is VERY cuddly and I hope she stays that way. Anna,HAPPY BIRTHDAY,from your Aunt Alicia and I love you very much !!!!!

Kelly is ENGAGED !!!!!!

2008-08-10T19:27:00.003-06:00

My dear friend Kelly Carter was engaged Wednesday August 6,2008. You can read her myspace blog to get the details.Let's just say that Nate was very creative and sneaky.I couldn't be happier for Kelly !! She's already got some of the major details worked out (in less than a week from being proposed to).I am praying for Kelly and Nate over the next couple of months as they prepare to marry.I'm also praying for their marriage that it will be God honoring and they will love each other for the rest of their lives.Nate and Kelly,I love you both and am so excited for you !!!!!

Laurel

2008-08-05T20:24:00.009-06:00

This is "my girl" Laurel !!! She's going to be a SENIOR this year and I'm SOOOOOO proud of her :) When I first met Laurel she was starting 3rd grade.She captured my heart instantly.I've watched her grow into a beautiful godly lady.She has
had lots of hard times as any teenager does but has always remained true to herself.She is VERY fun loving and can always make you laugh :) She perseveres through basketball and putting up with her family.haha Really,I'm VERY VERY proud of her and honored to call her friend.I'm very excited for her to be starting her senior year and hope it's the BEST.May God continue to bless Laurel !

In honor of Laurel's senior year,I thought I'd do a TOP 10 list.
So,here's the TOP 10 REASONS I LOVE LAUREL ...........

1o.She comes from an amazing family and I'm glad to know any of the Fraziers
9. She hasn't killed her dad yet :)
8. She can make you laugh anytime
7. She can play some MEAN basketball
6. She is BEAUTIFUL !!
5. She loves Taco Bell !!!!
4. She's got the most amazing green eyes
3. She loves the Lord
2. Did I mention she hasn't killed her dad yet :)
1. She has a great heart and a great enthusiasm for life

I love you Laurel and wish you the BEST senior year ever !!!!

Beautiful Video !!!

2008-07-27T19:38:00.002-06:00

"You Love the World "

2008-07-26T11:32:00.005-06:00

There is a song "You Love the World" by Keith Green that has come in and out of my life ever since I was a teenager.It's got a very catch beat and an even BETTER message. I could only find one video of it online but I really wanted you to hear the music and not just read the lyrics. So,enjoy !!!!!

You Love The World (And You're Avoiding Me)
I want you here with me.
But you've been keeping other company.
You can't sit still, it's plain to see.
You love the world and you're avoiding me.
My word sits there upon your desk.
But you love your books and magazines the best.
Prefer the light of your TV.
You love the world, and you're avoiding me.
You used to pray, you were so brave.
Now you can't keep even one appointment we've made.
Oh I gave my blood, to save you life.
Tell me, tell me is it right?
Will you leave me here along again tonight?
Well I love you, still more and more.
But you're fighting everything I'm working for.
You're acting like my enemy.
You love the world and you're avoiding me.
These other loves, they're hurting you.
If you end up losing me, then what will you do?
Oh, I gave my blood, to save your life.
Tell me, tell me is it right?
Will you leave me here alone again tonight?
Well, I want you, here with me.
But you've been keeping other company.
Prefer the light, of your TV.
You love the world, and you're avoiding me.
You love the world, you love the world,
You love the world and you're avoiding me.
Oh, you love the world.
You love the world and you're avoiding me.

Books,Books and More Books !!!!

2008-07-19T21:16:00.003-06:00

I've been reading ALOT lately. I love it now that I'm not required to do it :)
I have several books I've purchased but haven't read yet.I'm beginning to work through them though.I posted a list of books that I would like to eventually read.however,i know alot of you read too.So,I'm asking you to let me know what you love reading.Can't wait to see what you have to say !!!!!

meet Anna Elizabeth

2008-07-12T13:52:00.003-06:00

This is my "cutiepie " of a neice Anna Elizabeth.She'll be one next month. I know I've posted some pics but never really blogged about her.She is such a snugglebug and is such a calm soul. She's very quiet and just loves life.SHe's very easily pleased.While Madelyn is more like me i think,anna is just like her momma.she has such a beautiful face and a HUGE smile.Not to mention the bluest eyes you'll ever see. I'm so glad to see none of that has gone away over this past year.she was born with it and I really prayed she's stayed baby faced.Anna really likes to just sit back and watch.she's very cautious.It took her 4ever to warm up to anyone other than her mom and dad.THat's why I had such a great time visiting yesterday.I actually got her to climb up in my lap so i wanted to capture the moment.She really likes just being alone and playing.she loves her big sister and I hope that continues.She's saying a few words and loves kisses.She'll even "smack" at you like she's trying to kiss :)
Well,I just wanted to "formally" introduce you to Anna. She's such a blessing and I can't wait until I can interact with her even more !

Remember King Friday?

2008-07-12T11:17:00.004-06:00

I'm once again sharing a blog from a dear friend.Oh that I could write like she does !!! My thoughts,etc will be in bold and her words in normal text........

I know a lot of you tune into my blog because you want to hear my deepest, darkest secrets. The true confessions of my soul. Okay, so I'm about to share one with you. Hopefully it will encourage you and make you stronger in your own journey.

I have a severe aversion to muppets. To anything puppet-like, marionnette-like... just writing this makes me cringe. Any little felt zombie with big plastic eyes and little hands on sticks. My worst nightmare, aside from being eaten alive by a shark, is to be in a room alone filled with muppets.

So it's somewhat ironic that my husband Steve has gotten involved in the puppet ministry at our church. My friend David thinks it's happening so I can go through deliverance. Actually I'm totally great with Steve's involvement with these horrific beings, I love and respect his ministry to children. And there is nothing self-glorifying about being on the puppet team. A long time ago I wanted to get him a t-shirt that simply read "I'm on the puppet team," because it's such his heart. Now that it's actually true, it's a must.

The other day he mentioned the person heading up the puppet ministry is moving. "I might take it over," he says. "It would mean I would have to bring the puppets home." These are not cute little King Friday puppets. These are giant yarn-haired, button-nosed, intrusive - and I suspect- murderous puppets.

Somehow I knew it would come to this. I could ask him to store them in his car I suppose. It will take a strong move of God to get me over my fear. I'm just saying...

My friend David also reminded me of how puppets can increase communication between people. "Yeah," says my friend Debbie. "You guys can talk things out with puppets." If I didn't find that so funny, I would have cried.

So dear reader, remember the puppet man or woman in your church. Remember their family. You may think it's an easy ministry to be apart of, but everyone sacrifices for the sake of the children's laughter. Nightmares come and nightmares go, but the puppet man remains.

I laughed at this story first. Our God has such a sense of humor. He's using puppets to get her attention.I couldn't help but love my Lord and thank Him for His sense of humor.Then,I started thinking (always dangerous for me!).As simple of an issue as it sounds (her aversion to puppets)God knew it was an area in her life not surrendered to Him.It could potentially keep her from doing God's will or participating in His ministry.So,God brought it to her attention and had her address the issue.My friend's heart is soooo sensitive that I know she "hashed it out" with God and I'm so thankful for her heart.I started then wondering what area in my life is like the puppets? I know there's probably too many to name.That's ok. What's not ok is if I'm not asking God to reveal these to me.I'm not having a teachable spirit and allowing God to conquer more and more territory of my heart.I know this is me.This blog has convicted me.So,I wonder about you.Is there a puppet area in your life? Are you asking God to look inside your heart? Friend,let me encourage you about something.It's VERY VERY hard to be so open and raw with someone.however,God knows you already.He knows your heart.He LOVES you and is mesmerized by you !!!!! So,nothing you can say to Him or He can reveal to you will change that.God only wants to show you to make you more like Him and to grow closer to you.So,don't talk yourself out of this process.There's nobody on this earth I'd rather be open and raw before.Also,while I'm not an expert at this I'm not completely ignorant either. I can tell you it gets easier and easier the closer you get to God.I have to remind myself of this.I think "oh He's really going to get me for this one" but He's very gentle and I remember that He's only concerned about me looking more like Him. If you think i can help you in any way or share some wisdom,scripture,etc I'd be honored.Just e-mail me :)I love you dear reader and pray God's blessings on you.I leave you with another quote from my dear friend as she's coming out a time of this proces........

I am blessed a lot and I will always bless His name. I know this night season will have an end.

And tomorrow's dawn will be beautiful, because when is God not beautiful? When do Your mercies ever fail God? When does Your love ever end? You are Courage, You are the only Warrior, You are JESUS. When He leaves me in a hiding place to rest, I get up and follow Him. I won't let Him out of my sight. He gives me a view of the battlefield from His tower, enough to let me know the heavenlies are stirred up and no evil can get near me. He tells me to rest but I hold onto His garment because I won't go anywhere without him. I rest in Him. He's all I need.

Alicia's Top 100

2008-07-02T20:23:00.004-06:00

Ok,I basically stole this from some one else.however,I thought it was a great list of "must read" books.So,I couldn't help but share. I'll star the ones I've read to date and see how long it takes me to complete the whole 100 :) Won't you join me?

1.Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
*4 HArry Potter series - JK Rowling
*5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
*6 The Bible
*7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwellother
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
*10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Travelers Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
*22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
*29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
*30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
*31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
*40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
*41 Animal Farm - George Orwel
*42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
*57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
*70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
*73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett (MY PERSONAL FAVORITE OF ALL TIME !!!!!)
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
*75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray* (started several times)
80 Possession - AS Byatt
*81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
*87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
*91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
*98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
*99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

* means I've read already

HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY MADELYN !!!!!

2008-06-23T09:25:00.003-06:00

Phone call today between me and madelyn :

(my sister gives madelyn the phone)

Madelyn- "It's my birthday"
Alicia-"I know.Happy Birthday Madelyn!"
Madelyn-"I'm now 3"
Alicia-"yes you're getting to be a big girl"
Madelyn-"I want a ball for my birthday"
Alicia-"ok.what color ball do you want?"
Madelyn-hesistates then says "I want a Dora ball"

Ahhh ! Precious moments and the reason I LOVE LOVE LOVE being an aunt :)

secret ambition

2008-06-22T09:16:00.001-06:00

an AWESOME video : )

2008-06-21T22:20:00.000-06:00

Am I worth it?

2008-06-21T21:55:00.006-06:00

I've been thinking alot lately about my life and my value.Lately I've felt like a failure and like I'm not worth anything.The odd thing is as I've been thinking I've come to realize what has made me feel this way.What's really funny is that very few of them have any truth to them.I don't feel valued because i'm not "beautiful",have gorgeous clothes,sing beautifully,have a prestigious job, have a famous family,have alot of money,haven't conquered the world,etc. Then I start thinking that these are some of the world's standards of worth.The Bible tells me that I'm of great value simply because God created me AND created me in His image.The Bible also tells me that I'm the dwelling place of the Holy Spirit. That's it.That's what makes me worth MILLIONS and MILLIONS !!!!

2008-06-13T18:14:00.001-06:00

A "must see" story about a Hippo !!!!!

2008-06-07T10:28:00.001-06:00

Sue and Shannon

2008-06-06T18:56:00.002-06:00

I'm sharing this video that was made for church.This is my best friend shannon and her very good friend Sue.Both these ladies have blessed my life beyond measure.They talk about their friendship and how God brought them into each other's lives. I thought it was such a neat way to express my thoughts as well on what a real relationship looks like.It is not limited by age,race,social class,common interests.It blesses and edifies unlike anything else in your life.I hope everyone of you has a a sue or shannon in your life. You'll always be blessed when you go outside your comfort zone and let God put His hand of blessing on you :)

my pride and joy/showers of blessings

2008-05-31T21:59:00.005-06:00

Isn't she adorable? This is my beautiful neice Madelyn from Feb '08. I have to say that I've had a pretty rough past few months.But,one look at this face and I feel all better. I've got to post a video sometime so you can see just how bubbly and spunky she is :) I swear you'd think she's mine as she has my personality and looks more like me than her own parents.She reminds me of all the blessings I have in my life.That's why I call her my pride and joy.Anytime I feel a little down somehow I manage to think of her or call and she answers the phone.I actually talked to her tonight on the phone.It's so fun to be able to have a little conversation with her on the phone and she actually recognizes my voice too.She truly knows it's me :)
I guess I just felt lead to share this as I'm beginning to learn that everyone has some struggles or has some worries.It's a kindness of God that we have anything good in this life.During these past few months,i've really come to learn just what is important in life and what are needs and what are greeds.I'm learning that I really can live with alot less than I ever thought I could.Also many times the things that bring you the most joy are little things in life that can't be bought or made !!!!

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
Psalm 5:10-12

What's your plan B?

2008-05-19T18:10:00.003-06:00

I was watching a video from a church in Nashville.The pastor was talking about their series on Plan B.He said Plan B is what you're dealt that wasn't in your plans.
It's when life throws you a curve ball. I can say I feel like this right now.He made a point by saying that we should always keep our faith in these times.He profiled a couple that had a baby die after 2 hours of birth. They had known she wouldn't live long outside the womb if she lived at all.The wife of this couple made 2 points that really struck home with me.She first said that God can take any and all of the emotions and thoughts we have during this time.He WANTS us to continue to come to Him during these times.She also said that our Plan B was NEVER God's PLAN B.It was His Plan A all along.He ordained that moment or that situation.He KNOWS all about it :) That's gotta be encouraging to us as christians !!!

A recurring theme for me lately : )

2008-05-17T20:30:00.000-06:00

can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times

So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain

So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Is the Lord God Almighty

Bring the Rain !!!

2008-05-15T19:52:00.001-06:00

I was sure by now
God, You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

From my friend !

2008-05-14T16:30:00.001-06:00

***** I stole this blog from a friend of mine.She expresses some BEAUTIFUL thoughts
about prayer that were so good I just HAD to share :) **************************

Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Prayer - An Offensive Weapon

I worked on preparing a lesson one night. A few years ago each member of our SaLT group was assigned to do a lesson one of the parts of the Armor of God. I said "I want an offensive weapon!" (they asked, "why, because you are offensive?" LOL) and I asked to do a lesson on prayer. I found some interesting stuff about prayer and also went back to some old studies I have done to gather my info. I wanted to show prayer as a weapon in spiritual warfare and also the power that is in prayer. I don't want to mess around with little handguns...I want to show the big weapons! I want to reveal the atomic bomb of prayer!

After demonstrating how prayer is an effective weapon, I wanted to look at the best example of a prayer, Jesus Christ.

I decided to look at the ways and whens of Jesus' prayers and the results of those prayers. This is a summary of what I learned.

Refueling and Gaining Strength: Jesus often retreated to the mountain side or the garden to pray alone after teaching and healing. He did this to "refuel" and to learn God's Will for his next move. (Mark 1: 5, Luke 5:15)

Avoiding Temptation: Jesus taught about prayer (obviously) and made sure it was understood that prayer was the way to avoid temptation. (Matthew 26:41, Luke 22:40)

Decision Making: In Luke 6:12 after praying Jesus came down from the mountain and chose His disciples. That was a pretty important step in his ministry! They would be the ones to carry on His teaching.

Opening Connections: In Luke 9:28 after praying he was transfigured before the disciples there with him. His face glowed and clothes became bright. That's a pretty powerful prayer and open connection to the Father!

Opening Heaven: In Luke 3:21 we learn of Jesus' baptism and when Jesus prayed, "the heaven's opened" and the dove descended to Him. What I find interesting as well is that in Acts 7:54 Stephen prayed as he was about to be stoned to death. When Stephen prayed he saw the "heavens open". Eventually his spirit went to be with the Lord.

Prayer causes the heavens to open!

Heaven opened to allow the Spirit to descend on me when I prayed to receive Christ. At my death, the heavens will again open to receive the Spirit back. cool.

If prayer opens the heavens, OPENS THE HEAVENS, why don't we pray more often? Prayer is very powerful! Heaven opening is a direct connection to God, the Creator of heaven and earth...HE OPENS HIMSELF UP WHEN WE PRAY TO HIM! That is pretty awesome! Prayer moves mountains, opens the heavens...THAT IS MORE POWERFUL THAN AN ATOMIC BOMB AND IT IS AVAILABLE TO ALL CHRISTIANS, who are called to pray, and PRAY EMPOWERING PRAYERS!

PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you are.......................................

2008-05-13T19:52:00.004-06:00

-wondering if anyone cares for you
-feeling guilty
-going through a divorce
-praying for a rebellious child
-addicted to drugs
-wondering if God exists
-feeling all alone
-a victim of abuse
-envious of everyone and everything
-tempted to eat for comfort
-feeling hopeless
-physically tired
-emotionally drained
-worried about money
-grieving the loss of a child
-tempted to be prideful
-seeking answers to life's questions
-wondering what God is all about
-needing some "redemption"

then this video is for you :)

Isaiah 44:22
I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you."

A Great birthday week !!!!

2008-04-27T16:07:00.002-06:00

Last Sunday was my birthday ! I had an amazing birthday that lasted several days.First of all,the day before my birthday my family went to the zoo with my nieces.It was soooo much fun :) I haven't been in ages and of course it was great to experience it with my nieces.We then ate at Joe's Crab Shack which was sooooo good !!! I got many calls on Sunday from people saying happy birthday.Then,2 of my bible study girls surprised me with gifts on monday night.One gave me a mug with HOPE on it and Jeremiah 29:11 at the bottom of it.I love it :) Ann made chocolate pie too and it was YUMMY !!! They were so thoughtful to remember me on my birthday.Then wednesday at work we went out for lunch to celebrate mine and stephanie's birthdays.We went to one of my favorite restaurants and it was SOOOO good.I even tried something new and loved it.I got to keep a yellow rose from the table and got a free "chocolate majesty" dessert. I felt so loved and had fun. So thanks to all of you who helped me celebrate !!!!
I'll leave you with some pics from the trip to the zoo :)

A long overdue update !!!!!

2008-04-17T16:48:00.005-06:00

hello everyone ! I just realized in looking back at my blogs that I haven't posted about the everday "goings on" in my life in a while. I forget to do this because I feel like I don't do much exciting stuff.however,I do more than I realize AND I know you care about what's going on with me no matter what it is :) So,here's an update.
I'm still working for the state of TN as a social worker and still overstressed and underpaid.But,I really do like what I do and my clients.There's just so much of it.
I host a monday night's girls bible study and look forward to that EVERY week.The ladies in that group are soooo precious to me and I've enjoyed studying the Word with them.We also "come beside each other" and "do life" with each other.I always love the body of Christ in action.I also have to say quickly that God' Word has come alive to me again lately like never before and i'm so loving reading it.
I've been spending alot of time with my sister and nieces. I'm having a BLAST too.My sister and I have had some talks like never before in our lives and I'm so thankful for her :) And of course I love being Aunt Alicia more than anything else in the world. Madelyn will be 3 in June and Anna is 8 months.I heard Anna say "momma" for the first time last night.She also is making faces when she eats :) Madelyn used to do that too but it was a different face.Anna still the cutest baby face with the cutest BIG blue eyes that make you smile just looking at her. Madelyn is very active,quite verbal and somewhat demanding.She's very sweet though too and I have to say obeys pretty well.We all still say she's just like me and she is :) Weird since I didn't give birth to her though. We're all going to the zoo on saturday so i'm sure I'll have some pics to share this weekend :)
A couple of weekends ago on Sunday I had such a fun day.I went to an art show in Trenton Tn where a friend of mine was showing a couple of pieces.I really enjoyed getting to see her,support her and see all the art on display. There were some amazing peices and my friend was voted "people's choice". So it waa a hit all around.Her sister is my best friend and she had just bought a Toyota Prius.I got to ride in it !!!! I loved it :) It's a beautiful red and has so many cool features.You push a button to turn it on and you can barely hear it running.On the dashboard there's a screen that has multiple purposes.One screen shows you how much gas you're using and how much batter power you're using.the Prius is a hybrid in case you didn't know.So that was soooo cool to see.Then the screen shows you behind your car when you back up in reverse.Then it serves as the cd player and radio player (if I remember right).It was just a cool car with a smooth ride.I enjoyed the drive to Trenton with her and it was a beautiful day for a ride. Then,we hung out at their parents house for a while.i always love being around their family and especially being out in the backyard of their house.I've included a pic of it and you'll understand why. That same weekend madelyn and I were picking dandelions out in the yard as it was the first warm weekend here.It was so fun to watch spring come alive through her eyes.I've included a pic I took of her with the dandelion.
I'm thinking about gettin a new cell phone since it's time to upgrade my plan.I'm looking at the Verion Invy (I think that's how you spell it).My friend Rhonda has one and she loves it.I'll post a pic of it as soon as I get it.
I've been sick quite a bit this winter too and that's another reason i haven't been up to much other than work.i'm hoping that since spring has arrived maybe all this nasty stuff that's been going around will be gone.
Last thing to share is that i'm beginning to write a bible study.i've got the name and a temporary table of contents for the chapters.This should be interesting as I'm no english major or biblical scholar.However,i feel that i have something to share so i'm just going to see what happens with it.
Well,that's all I know to share for now. Check back this weekend for some zoo and birthday pics :)

Loves and Hugs,
Alicia

The devil REALLY does wear Prada : )

2008-04-11T18:10:00.002-06:00

I realize some of you all have not talked to me lately.So you don't really know what's going on in my life.To be completely honest,I've been battling depression a little and just overall been in a state of mind questioning alot of things in my life.I think I might be having my mid-life crisis early :) I don't enjoy my job,I'm not able to do many things I enjoy doing for various reasons and just overall don't feel like i'm enjoying life.Work keeps me busy and has weighed on me ALOT more than I realized.BUT,i've begun to do some things to try to help.I know my God wants me to live life to the full.One of the hard things about this is that most of my friends seem to be enjoying life and getting to do what they want.So,envy can creep up on me pretty quickly.I'm pretty good about recognizing it though and remembering that they also have struggles and God has me exactly where I need to be.I say all that so that you can know my frame of mind in the story i'm about to share.
Last weekend I got to spend some time with some DEAR and PRECIOUS friends of mine.They are always so encouraging to me because they are so fun,compassionate and just love life !!! They help me to remember to have fun,work hard and play harder :) One of them is self employed and just always seems to have things going her way.She seems to have no cares in the world (even though I know she does).She doesn't have a boss she answers too and can sleep in any time she wants (ok,so we're all hating her right about now right? haha).Just FYI,she knows how blessed she is and doesn't take it for granted. I noticed she had the CUTEST purse with her.And what did my eyes see? Did it really say PRADA ??????? No way!!!! I instantly thought someone had bought it for her and thought "how nice to have someone who would do that for you".All my envious thoughts staring going haywire.I'll spare you some of them :) Later on that afternoon,I asked her about the purse.SHe smiled and said "yes I got it at a market in rome for $10.It isn't even real PRADA".I was shocked. It's still one of the CUTEST purses ever but my thoughts just automatically shifted.She went on to say "yeah,I started not to get it because I didn't want people thinking I'd spend that much on a purse but decided that I knew it was only $10 and I just loved it". Talk about a slap in the face :) Here I was letting all these envious thoughts run wild in my head and God was using that as a teachable moment.He reminded me of 2 things. 1)things are never as they seem and 2)we can think people have it all together or seem to have all the luck but we may not know the whole story.Just think what I'd be thinking right now if I hadn't mentioned the purse to my friend.I would've never known the real truth. I titled this blog "the devil really does wear prada" because I think the devil does look for any opportunity or emotion within us to doubt God,doubt His goodness,provision or sovreignty. I don't think it was coincidence at all this was what Satan threw at me knowing my recent struggles.I've been reminded lately of a little chorus I used to sing at church camp growing up "The greatest thing in all my life is LOVING you,the greatest thing in all my life is LOVING you,I want to LOVE you more,I want to LOVE you more,the greatest thing in all my life is LOVING you !!!!" I also came across this verse today as I was having my quiet time

Psalm 73:28 (New King James Version)

28 But it is good for me to draw near to God;
I have put my trust in the Lord GOD,
That I may declare all Your works.

to the core........

2008-03-29T20:33:00.002-06:00

To the core of my being I will trust in the Lord my God !!!! Lately,things have been hard in many aspects of my life.What's so amazing is that it's also a time where I'm seeing God encourage me.I'm at this very moment watching some Beth Moore videos online.God has put many people and places in my path to remind me of His presence.He's the only hope I have right now.Laying things down and not being in control of things is very hard for me.however,i'm learning that I haven't really been trusting God like I should.I thought I was trusting Him but I wasn't.He's got some things to teach me.My dear friend Ashley always emphasizes how important it is to have a teachable spirit.I'm
pledging to always be teachable from this point forward.These are trying times but I hope to come out of the "refiner's fire" looking "pure as silver".

Psalm 56:8 (The Message)
The Message (MSG)

8 You've kept track of my every toss and turn
through the sleepless nights,
Each tear entered in your ledger,
each ache written in your book.

So you've become a christian,now what?

2008-03-22T21:51:00.006-06:00

Discipleship has always been on my heart.It's been confirmed to be one of my top spiritual gifts along with intercession.also,i believe there are MANY christians in the world in need of discipleship.From the new christian to the person who has never
been discipled,it's essential that a christian learn some biblical foundations for living the christian life.I believe this is an area that churches failed in for a long time but are starting to realize the importance of it now.Since we're seeing a turn towards discipleship in the church and it's near and dear to my heart i thought I would share some of my thoughts.Typically,when someone becomes a christian they understand that they are a sinner and need Jesus to justify them before Almighty God.I think alot of times that is all that is understood.While this is true,there is so much more to being a christian than just being "saved".In most cases there's this whole life you live afterwards.

Romans 6:4-14
We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.If we have been united with him like this in his death, we will certainly also be united with him in his resurrection.For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with,that we should no longer be slaves to sin because anyone who has died has been freed from sin.Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him.For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again; death no longer has mastery over him.The death he died, he died to sin once for all; but the life he lives, he lives to God.In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus.Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires.Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to him as instruments of righteousness.For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law, but under grace.

This scripture tells us that we now live under grace,are not to let sin reign our mortal body and to allow our body to be instruments used by God.To me this is the "mission statement" of the christian life.This is what we are to be about while here on earth after we become saved.So,let's take a look at what each one of these means.

What does it mean to live under grace?

Titus 3:4-7
But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared,he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit,whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior,so that,having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life

This means to know our eternal salvation is secure NO MATTER WHAT !!! We are heirs of salvation which means it belongs to us.We have a "birthright" that entitles us to the blessings and kindess of God.So how does this "flesh out"? It means that we can go about our daily lives knowing that nothing can take our salvation away from us.It also means we have a Holy Spirit that will help us and a Father who will continue to care for our physical and emotional needs.

What does it mean to not let sin reign our mortal body?
Galatians 5:16-23
So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature.For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery;idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Romans 12:1-2
And so, dear brothers and sisters,I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him.Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

These verses are just 2 that can be found in scripture that speak to our actions and thoughts.There are numerous ones in the Bible.Sin can reign in both of these and that is contrary to our new life in Christ.You can delve even further into this through prayer,accountability,daily quiet time,etc.As a christian I can ASSURE you that you will struggle in these two areas.It's somewhat of an individual issue as to the practical ways you conquer sin's reign over your actions and thoughts.Also,the intensity of this struggle will vary person to person.So,I'm not going to speak too specifically on this subject.But,just know you will struggle with it as will every other christian.Don't feel that you're alone and don't give up.God calls you to not let it reign in your body so you can fight it.

1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

What does it mean to allow God to use us as His instruments?

This means that we have things God wants us to do.We've been created for a purpose.It means that we can be God's hands and feet to accomplish His will.So,what does God want us to do?

Ephesians 5:1-2
Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

John 21:15-17
When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?"
"Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."

Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?"
He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."

The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."

Jesus said, "Feed my sheep.

Matthew 28:19-20
"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Acts 5:42
Day after day, in the temple courts and from house to house, they never stopped teaching and proclaiming the good news that Jesus is the Christ.

These verses seem to tell us there are 2 things God wants us to do as His instruments.There are 1)love people as He loves them and 2)tell people the Good News. Just like not letting sin reign our mortal body this can seem simple but is really complex.It's an individual decision as to how you practically do these things.BUT,every christian is called to do them.Some may choose to be full time missionaries while others serve in their local neighborhood.Both are doing these 2 things but just in different ways.

So,this is the start of discipleship.This is how a christian lives after being saved.Once you are doing these things you may come across doubts,issues,questions,praises you need to express.that's completely acceptable and appropriate.You will continue this until the day you die.So,let it become a part of you and your daily life.Share with others,get feedback,share testimonies and continue reading scripture.This will help you accomplish these things God wants us to do and see His character even more.

Why Good Friday is Good

2008-03-21T10:00:00.002-06:00

Matthew 27:50-54 (New International Version)

50And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.

51At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook and the rocks split. 52The tombs broke open and the bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53They came out of the tombs, and after Jesus' resurrection they went into the holy city and appeared to many people.

54When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, "Surely he was the Son[a] of God!"

This scripture reveals the last moments of Jesus' life on the day we've termed Good Friday. As I went to bed last night thinking about what today means to me,I was sad. Jesus died. It was a day that had several hours of darkness according to the Word.Nothing about it was good to the people living on the first Good Friday.
So,why do we call it Good? It's because of what the scripture above says. Jesus died and began the process of redemption and eternal victory over death !!!!!!!! That right there is reason enough for it to be GOOD. But let's not quickly skim over these verses and forget 2 things that I've always loved about this particular scripture.
The first is the fact that the curtain of the temple was torn.This allows us as christians a direct access line to God.It means we can approach the Father ourselves
and not depend on an earthly priest.Jesus became THE PRIEST !!!!!! what a marvelous act that allows us now to have an "Abba" we can call on anytime.The second thing is that the centurion and others couldn't help but acknowlege God after what they'd seen.Our actions really can speak louder than our words.We can display God in our lives without even speaking the gospel.That doesn't mean we're not to share but I just want to focus on the importance of our actions.When we live for God and do as He's called according to His plan,others won't have any other option but to say God is in that person. So may God be glorified through you today :)
That will make this day GOOD Friday !!!!!!!

Adoption= a GREAT idea

2008-03-16T16:11:00.003-06:00

it seems like I've been hearing about adoptions so much lately.A precious couple friend of mine are leaving tomorrow to pick up their son in Russia. Several other families I know here locally are beginning the adoption process.You can just see the love in their hearts for their children. I have known all my life that I would never have children of my own. I'd decided a long time ago to adopt instead of spending alot of money of trying to become pregnant through alternative means and then pumped full of hormones,etc. I had decided that back in college I guess.Then I started questioning if I would love a child as my own if it didn't come from me at least in some way.Not long after I started really being concerned about this,God brought a little boy Clay into my life.For 3 years I spent alot of time with him as his babysitter and family friend to his parents. I truly loved Clay as my own and still do. God put that little boy in a special place in my heart.He'll always be there too.No matter how old I get,how many children/neices,nephews i have,etc.No one can replace him in my heart.That just proves to me that God has ordained adoption (just as He adopted us into His family) and He is the love giver.He will provide whatever is needed for adopted children and the parents so that they can become the family he's ordained them to be :)

So this is faith !!

2008-02-17T16:42:00.002-06:00

I've been reading in my quiet time lately about God's love and faithfulness.i've been reading about His provision and security.However,it doesn't seem that I nor others around me have any of this.It's been kind of hard to agree with the Word when I'm not seeing it in action.I'm not doubting,don't get me wrong.Fortunately,I'm firmly rooted for such a time as this.I'm just saying it's hard to agree with it right now.God seems to be contradicting Himself.However,I know better.So,how do I work this out in my brain.Well,first of all,I have to agree with this statement.God is God and is the Almighty !!!!! I agree with this and believe this.With that,I'm saying He's omnipotent,good,kind and faithful. Yes,I can agree with that too.God is God and I am not as steven curtis chapman says in a popular song. So,I have to realize He's the GREAT GOD and I'm nothing.So,He's in complete control and i'm not.He has the right to do as He wants and I don't.Ok,now that we've got that settled.Next thing is I have to believe that God has perfect will.All He does is meant to bring glory to Him.So,if we struggle to make us stronger than He might just allow us to go through hard times.Does that mean He's left or forsaken us? NEVER !!!! It just feels like it sometimes.I've been very guilty of turning away from God in hard times and just wanting to handle it myself.I've thought "well you didn't protect me from this so I'd rather get my self out so that I KNOW it'll be done".How very foolish of me.I picture God laughing and very sad both at the same time.Laughing because I think He's not ALL over the situation and sad because I'm not coming to Him or seeking Him.It's VERY VERY hard during dark times to see joy,love,peace that God promises.It's there or available though.It REALLY REALLY IS !!!! It doesn't mean that it won't come through pain or tears.But,it'll come someway,somehow.I think i've missed out on it's arrival because I wasn't looking for it.Again,that's why I say it's soooo important to seek God during the times when you most don't want to.Finally,you have to believe !! Faith is believing without seeing.I've heard this verse all my life but never truly understood it until recently.I don't see or feel God's love but I know it's there.I don't see or feel peaceful but it's there.So is joy ! So is God !!!
This is faith. Sometimes it's all we have to hold on to. It's all we can know in a situation we're facing.So,this is faith !!!! Despite what I see around me,am feeling or experiencng I believe in God and who HE says He is and I am.I believe His promises !!!

Romans 3:3

What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God's faithfulness?

Tornado hits Jackson,TN

2008-02-06T19:39:00.000-06:00

A tornado hit my hometown of Jackson,TN last night. I can say that i've never seen such damage in my life. I posted 3 pictures that to me captured alot of the story.So,I'll comment a little about each picture.

1)this is the side of the Walgreeens. I've pulled into that very spot MANY a time to get my meds filled. Amazing !!!!

2)this picture shows a dorm room with clothes,etc intact but the wall torn down.This is amazing to me.I've never understood how tornadoes touch some things but not others

3) this shows how cars were piled up on top of each other.that only HINTS at the devastation.What also really struck me was the apartments in the back of this picture.My mom lives there and it's literally just right across the street from the Union dorms. I can't believe there was no damage there.

Please keep Union University in your prayers as they have a long road to recovery !!!!!

The killer within...........

2008-01-25T15:15:00.000-06:00

I recently read the story of Esther from the Bible.Interestingly enough,it's the only book in the Bible that doesn't mention God.What struck me about this story was th character of Haman.Haman detested the Jews and convinced the king to decree all the Jews to be killed.In Esther's plot to reverse this decree,she invites Haman and the king to a series of banquets.Scripture tells us that Haman is bragging about this to his wife.He says "I have a special invitation to Esther's banquet.No one else is invited".He then goes on to say "but how am I able to truly appreciate my good fortune with Mordecai(a jew) still out at the king's gates?".
Haman reveals alot here about the human character.first of all,he's bragging about his special invitation to the banquet.He wants to be revered and wants to be somebody.He wants to feel like a "celebrity". He's full of greed and pride.He's all about self exaltation.Sound like someone you know? Secondly,he then statese that he can't enjoy this special invitation because Mordecai is still around.He lets someone else determine his happiness and/or ruin his happiness.Even if he had the right to brag and be super excited about the banquet,he won't allow himself to be.How often do we do that to ourselves? We get envious about someone else's good fortune so much that we can't be happy for them.We feel guilty about blessing we receive because someone else didn't. We're not satifisfied with what we have. We want more just as haman couldn't fully celebrate knowing Mordecai was still around.
Let me challenge you today to examine if this applies to you in any way? If so,what are you going to do about it?

Roll call !!!!

2008-01-23T11:11:00.001-06:00

hey everyone ! I've had several of you say you read my blog.You've even talked about some of my posts.However,very few comments are actually posted.That's ok but I'd like to know who all is out there :) so,here's the idea. A Roll call !!!
comment back to this post and let me know you're out there.You can do it anonymously
if you don't have an account. Looking forward to hearing from you !!!!!

This is the good life !!!!

2008-01-06T11:28:00.000-06:00

Anyone who knows me knows i've had alot of stress this past year.Work has not been fun,things in my personal life had been hard and I've had lots of times where I felt very distant from God.Somehow,I've survived it though and I'm starting 2008 out on a good note.The one thing that i've been constantly reminded of lately is what really matters.What makes a day a good day? What's worth living for? where's the fine line between working hard and letting it rule your life? Fortunately,i've been able to remember that it's family,friends,the little moments in life that answer these questions.I have to work hard to have money.also,I have a strong work ethic and believe in working hard.You just have to make sure you take time for yourself and remember the important things.I appreciate coming home and enjoying some quiet time knowing that I've worked hard that day.There really is nothing more satisfying at night that knowing you made good use of the day God gave you.I wanted to share some things that to me are examples of what makes life worth it.Things like these have helped me keep my focus and remember what it's all about.It helps me get up in the morning to start a new day and rest securely at night.The picture on the left is of some dear friends of mine.I've known this family for several years now.What makes this pic so special is who all is in it.This is a missionary family.The parents are in canada.One of the daughters just returned from the middle east and one is about to leave for western europe.The 3rd daughter and her family have been in southeast Asia for almost 2 years now.so,the fact that they were all together for christmas was a HUGE deal.It doesn't happen that often.They have really enjoyed this time together knowing that it's rare and precious.also,I'm very excited about tonight as we're going to get to spend time with them as their SALT group.We also know how precious this family is and how precious time with them is. This is the good life !!!!
The picture on the right is one that an intercessor friend sent me.I love this pic :)
It's a pic of a little boy who was prayed for over a LONG period of time and who truly is a miracle. This not only reminds me of how prayer works but just how precious life is.It is a universal picture as there are sooooo many babies being prayed over and so many who fight for life when they are born.Life itself makes this a good life !!!!!I also have some dear friends who have been in the process of adopting from Russia for 1 1/2 years now.They had really gotten discouraged and were growing impatient as things weren't progressing in the time frame they usually do.That's when we were all reminded that God's timing is PERFECT !!! They got a call in mid december that they had a son.They got to spend christmas with their son in Russia.That's something they will never forget !!!! Of course,they'd remember meetiing him no matter what month it was.However,because of the slow progress it was christmas instead of mid summer.It really put a new focus on Christmas for them and was the best Christmas present they will ever receive !!!!!
So,all these stories helped remind me of God's provision and timing.It gave me encouragement and hope.It helped me keep my focus and to remember this really is the good life !!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLISON !!!!!

2008-01-03T20:43:00.001-06:00

Today's my sister's birthday ! I'm so proud to be her big sister.She and i haven't always seen eye to eye but as we get older i think we're beginning to appreciate each other's uniqueness.I can ask her for advice about ANYTHING and she'll offer it.Also,she's one of the most fashionable people I know :) I can always trust her to tell me if it looks good or not.On top of all that,she's a GREAT mom.I can't believe how she's poured her heart and soul into her girls.She's raising two of the most beautiful girls who have the sweetest spirits.I think that's partly because of what they see modeled in her. So,I just wanted to take a minute and brag on my little sister.I couldn't think of a better opportunity than her birthday.So,again,HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!

A New Year !!!!!

2008-01-01T10:52:00.000-06:00

(My friend Sarah posted this on her blog.I thought it was kinda neat so I thought i'd contribute my thoughts)

What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
bought a brand new car (i've always bought one at least a year old)

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't make any, but I have this year.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
actually yes,my sister Allison,friend Becky and several other friends (2007 was a year for babies)

Did anyone close to you die?
no (thank goodness)

What countries did you visit?
none sadly

What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
More self-awareness,money,time for myself

What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
august 15,2007 anna's birthday and 12/4/2007 my parents' divorce finalized

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
spending some good quality time with my sister and nieces

What was your biggest failure?
too many to list here

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really.

What was the best thing you bought?
my car

Whose behavior merited celebration?
my niece

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
several people come to mind

Where did most of your money go?
Rent and debt.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My car and my niece being born

What song will always remind you of 2007?

Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? A little happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter
iii. richer or poorer? about the same

What do you wish you'd done more of?
Memorizing scripture

What do you wish you'd done less of?
Watching TV.

How will you be spending Christmas?
spent it at my sister's

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
outside family it's shannon

What was your favorite TV program?
too many to name

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I've come to dislike some people but i try not to HATE anyone

What was the best book you read?
The End of the Spear

What was your greatest musical discovery?
jazz

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned the big 30 and I had a BIG birthday weekend in Nashville

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
I didn't care (I do now though :) )

What kept you sane?
some dear friends

What political issue stirred you the most?
there were several this year.It's becoming more and more evident that politics can and do affect you personally

Who did you miss?
jonathon

Who was the best new person you met?
my niece anna

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
Take each day at a time.Worry can destroy you and you can only handle one thing at a time anyway.Let go of yesterday and don't anticipate tomorrow as it'll be here soon enough

all in a day's gift.......

2007-12-28T22:48:00.000-06:00

Today,I got ALOT accomplished at work.I was sooo glad too as i need several more days like that.For those of you who pray,please ALWAYS make that a prayer priority.
I'm only going to be good at my job with God's help.I'm really coming to realize that.Perhaps that's why He hasn't seen it fit for me to leave DHS yet.He wants me to REALLY understand true dependence on Him.I've been reminded lately that each day is a gift from God.Also,we can only handle one day at a time.That doesn't mean we don't plan ahead,etc.However,we should ALWAYS wake up thankful for the gift of that day and go to bed knowing we made the most of the time that day.
tonight,i helped my mom babysit my two nieces.Madelyn is 2 1/2 and Anna is 4 1/2 months.Madelyn is such a little lady and just loves life.she loves music and is happy doing just about anything.She's a little jealous of me when it comes to Anna.I think that's cute personally :) I think we have a bond like no other.She looks and acts like me in ways and she'll always be my first niece.She wants attention and she knows what she likes/wants. She's also very polite and is overall a VERY sweet child.
she's my pride and joy.Anna is rolling over from front to back and back to front.It was sooooo neat to see her tonight.mom had put her on a mat and she was just rocking and rolling :) Anna has got the most beautiful eyes and smile.It just melts your heart.She so far seems to be much more laid back than Madelyn.I think that's part of being a little sister.I see her being a little more on the quiet side than madelyn as they grow. i see such a peaceful spirit in her and I believe she's going to be a very wise creative young lady.
i just had a great time with them tonight.I always love seeing my mom and just hanging out with her too.So,tonight i go to bed grateful to Almighty God for my blessings and family.I look forward to 2008 where I anticipate spiritual growth,financial gain and lots of great memories !!!!!

Can I help you?

2007-12-23T20:11:00.000-06:00

Lately,I've been privileged to talk with some people about my battle over worry.It's soooo neat to see how God has given me this opportunity. I've come to realize that this is a big problem that ALOT of people deal with.It's mentioned alot in scripture too so God must have known it was something humankind would struggle with.So,I thought it was blog worthy to share some things i've learned about worry that might help someone else.
Let me say that I do believe some people are more predisposed to it than others.It's just the way God made us.Thanks be to God too for His creation !!!!So,don't feel like you're weird,crazy,impulsive,immature,etc just because you worry. Also,it's something that you won't ever be able to completely control.You will always have times of worry or have thoughts creep back up in your mind.However,you can live victorious and learn that God's grace is sufficient for you. Below,i'm going to list some important things about worry that I think are important.............

1)worry in itself is not sin. Don't think something is wrong with you because you worry.EVERYBODY has something that "torments" them as worry torments you.Also,worry is a natural part of human life.It's what you do with those "worry" actions and thoughts that lead to sin or lack of faith

2)talk therapy is HUGE in conquering worry.Ask yourself "why I am I worried?" "What will I do if this happens and what will I do if that happens?" "What's the worst that can happen?" "What can my worrying do about the situation?"
Seriously,these questions were HUGE in helping myself. I would lay in bed worried about things to happen the next day when I started realizing that I was only making things worse.I couldn't control anything from my bed and me staying up worrying only would make me sleepy the next day and not best prepared to face whatever was going to happen.Also,use talk therapy as a "reverse psychology". Tell yourself positive things
or happy things if you start worrying over "stupid" self.Our brains are wonderful things but they can play havoc with us too.We have to sometimes feed our brains with the things we want in it.

3)journaling is a big help too. Worry can come along because someone hasn't expressed
their thoughts,feelings,emotions,etc. It helps to write out your thoughts even if you don't feel that you need to.I can promise you that you don't want to let things bottle up until they explode. It's just messy :) believe me !!!!!

4)seek professional help. There are times when your worries are not rational and you may need therapy or medicine. You'll know if/when you get to this point. It's probably a temporary thing but is still VERY serious and needs expert advice.Give yourself some slack and don't be prideful. ALOT more people than you realize take medicine or have professional help.

5)take care of yourself.Diet and exercise REALLY REALLY are an important part of your mental health.Even short walks,having plants in the house,yoga,running with your dog,playing kickball with your niece (my personal favorite) can make a BIG difference.Take time out for yourself and drink lots of water.Avoid the sugary caffeinated stuff if you can.It just makes anxiety worse.

I hope this helps you ! It's not complicated and doesn't require much.BUT,it'll help you more than you'll ever know

NO WORRIES,
Alicia

Giving and Giving and Giving and Giving !!!!!

2007-12-16T12:12:00.000-06:00

I've heard 2 stories this week about giving that I thought were neat and just had to share.First story is at starbucks.I heard about this on Good Morning America. Apparently at a drive thru Starbucks,someone pulled up and paid for thier drinks.Then,they said that they wanted to pay for the person's drinks behind them.Thier only request was that they "pay it forward". So,the receipient of the free drinks decided to pay for the person's behind them.This went on and on at the Starbucks drive thru for over 100 people before someone broke the chain. Isn't that neat? 2nd story is about a local soldier here in JAckson.he was surprising his parents and returning on furlough.He got to the airport in Texas on the last leg of his trip.First of all,he was greeted there by a group of vietnam vets with goodies,posters,cheers,etc. Apparently,a vietnam vet close to that airport does this whenever he hears a group of soldiers will be coming through.Then,he was sitting down at the back of the waiting area just relaxing before boarding his next flight.All the sudden,Lee Greenwood came up to him and started talking to him.He told Lee Greenwood he'd always been a fan of his.Lee said "well I'm a fan of yours" and thanked him for his service,etc.They took pictures and got autographs,etc. A little while later he got ready to board his plane and was called to the ticket counter.The agent told him that he and his friend had been upgraded to first class seats.When he asked how that had happened,the agent told him that Lee Greenwood and his companion had switched seats with him and his friend so that they could ride first class.

These are 2 simple but classic examples of giving and being a blessing.They were a neat reminder to me and thought you might enjoy them too :)

Twas the 'Nite Before Christmas........ (texas style)

2007-12-11T16:22:00.000-06:00

(I stole this from a fellow blogger.I have a few Texas readers who I thought would appreciate it !!!)

'Twas the night before Christmas, in Texas, you know.
Way out on the prairie, without any snow.
Asleep in their cabin, were Buddy and Sue,
A dreamin' of Christmas, like me and you.

Not stockings, but boots, at the foot of their bed,
For this was Texas, what more need be said,
When all of a sudden, from out of the still night,
There came such a ruckus, it gave me a fright.

and I saw 'cross the prairie, like a shot from a gun,
A loaded up buckboard, come on at a run,
The driver was "Geein" and "Hawin", with a will,
The horses (not reindeer) he drove with such skill.

"Come on there Buck, Poncho, & Prince, to the right,
There'll be plenty of travelin' for you all tonight."
The driver in Levi's and a shirt that was red,
Had a ten-gallon Stetson on top of his head.

As he stepped from the buckboard, he was really a sight,
With his beard and moustache, so curly and white.
As he burst in the cabin, the children awoke,
and were so astonished, that neither one spoke.

and he filled up their boots with such presents galore,
That neither could think of a single thing more.
When Buddy recovered the use of his jaws,
He asked in a whisper, "Are you really Santa Claus?"

"Am I the real Santa? Well, what do you think?"
and he smiled as he gave a mysterious wink.
Then he leaped in his buckboard, and called back in his drawl,
"To all the children in Texas, Merry Christmas, Ya’ll"

sowing with tears

2007-12-06T20:46:00.000-06:00

Tonight,on my way home from work,the tears just flowed. I realized that I had been holding some feelings in for a while.I didn't even really realize they were there until they were brought to the surface today.I'm so thankful they were too.I already feel better but the healing's only begun. I believe that as a christian there are moments that we're called to be "raw",heart wide open,vulnerable,grieved and burdened.However,these moments have a purpose.The social worker in me thought that it was just because we all know what stress and stress relief,techniques can do for a person.However,I read in the bible Psalms 126:5
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
The picture of this is amazing.First of all,we have to sow in tears.That means that tears are expected and even required.They are a perfectly natural part of a christian life.So,we should not be ashamed of tears or feel weak because of tears.We should be thankful for them as the "seeds" to great things. Then,we reap joy from tears.This amazes me too.Tears are used to produce joy ! I think this is because tears cause us to be "raw",heart wide open,vulnerable,grieved and burdened.Out of this,God produces peace,joy,dependence,wisdom and love.All that out of some tears? Seems like a pretty good deal to me :)
I shared this with you as I sense maybe you needed to hear this.Maybe you need to know you're not alone in your tears,tears are actually good things not to be ashamed of.Perhaps you need to be convicted of not having tears in your life.I can tell you it's the greatest thing ever ! Please be open before the Father and allow Him to show you some areas in your life that need some "tear" sowing.Remember,joy comes from those seeds.

I don't want to need a Savior

2007-12-03T20:19:00.000-06:00

(I got this from a fellow blogger.I can battle worry at times too so I thought his words were wise.Also,I never thought of the root of it.I'm just like Danny (the blogger) in that I don't want to need a Savior.How awful of that is me.I think being a christian so long sometimes causes me to forget the most important aspect of my relationship with Christ.He is my Savior first and foremost.We entered our relationship because of my need for Him.I recognized that at the ag of 8 so why is it so hard for me now at age 30?)

It’s pretty obvious that worry for a Christian stems from a lack of trust in God. I’ve known this, of course, but changing my own heart about something (like fear) can be difficult. Well, no, impossible.

The other day, I was entrenched in worry again, which so often spirals itself down into depression. Laura saw it.

“What’s wrong?” she said.

I told her. We talked.

“I just don’t really think you believe that God can and will take this away.” She said. And, like many times, she was right. Not that God just “takes things away” all the time — but he does work in his children. He changes hearts; using means often (such as Bible study, prayer, and loving Gospel community). But, still, he changes them, and I so often do not believe that God will change me from a worrier to a more-consistent-truster. Welch himself says, “Unlike the rest of the world, we are not going to assume that fear and worry are staples of human life. Instead we are going to set out on a path to trust more and worry less” (Running Scared, 121). That’s a biblical mindset — not passive, but not a personal sovereign — following a God-ordained pathway to change.

But, the problem is that I so often (even in recent days) have not believed that God will change me.

Oftentimes, I’ll have sinful or worrisome thoughts come into my head for any number of reasons, and the thought will set me into worrying and then into depression. Laura knows this, and offered a suggestion for dealing with it. Pray that God will take the thoughts away — that I would be able to focus on whatever I should be doing. I have functionally disbelieved that God would take these thoughts and allow me freedom and purity in my own consciousness. But I want to believe better.

The other day something happened. I was thinking and then worrying, and I tried praying. A light bulb dinged. The problem, often, has been that I hate the fact that I need to pray or trust God. I want to not have wicked thoughts, or a worrying heart, and that — the fact that I do have these things within me — distresses me. I don’t want to need to commit myself to my savior God in Christ. I don’t want to need a savior.

Now that is wicked, man. Rebellious. The desire for bird-flipping autonomy poking through the malaise of my heart’s desires. I don’t want to need Jesus, and, in many ways, I think that is why I don’t easily trust him. I want to save myself. Or, more often, to not need saving in the first place.

Of course, I do need a savior. No — I need The Savior. The all-sufficient and perfect Lamb who now intercedes for me. Who sent his heart-changing and regenerating Spirit from on high.

I need him. So often I don’t want to.

Lord, I am so sorry for this wickedness in me. Please help me to trust in you and you alone; to revel in your saving work. Change me, Lord, please. And bring yourself glory.

Godiva

2007-12-02T15:34:00.000-06:00

I'm a chocoholic anyway but Godiva is my absolute FAVE !!!! So you can imagine how excited I was when I got this Godiva chocolate oversized coffee mug along with lots of Godiva chocolate :) It always brightens up a girls day when she gets chocolate.It's even better that I'll get to keep the mug and have Godiva with me at all times :)
I know you readers can relate out there.So,share with me your favorite kinds of chocolate and the best chocolate gift you've ever gotten

Lots of chocolate hugs and kisses,

Alicia

The Scrooge,The Grinch and the Prince of Peace

2007-12-02T00:12:00.000-06:00

It has already started this christmas season. I've been battling a cold for a week now,I've only just begun on my christmas shopping,it's hit me how FAST christmas is approaching,I've got enough on my mind to think about without christmas interferring and I have a full time job to go to.Not to mention my niece is old enough to want certain things that have caused a slight stressor for aunt "sheesha" who has to be the cool aunt who will give her stuff she likes.Fortunately,I've found what I think will make her happy :) But,not without a little worry and some savy shopping skills.So,why is this so important to me? Why am I so focused on the presents,trees,wrapping paper,christmas cards,etc? Why do I feel like Scrooge who just wants to forget about christmas? Or better yet the Grinch who was miserable and wanted everyone else to be miserable too?It's craziness to pretend like christmas is the "most wonderful time of the year" or "it's a wonderful life"."Silent Night,holy night" does not exist at my house currently and I'm not even going to try to pretend like I'm all cozy and warm like the christmas cards and commercials depict.To be honest,I feel alot like the Grinch.I can let envy creep in so I turn green like him.
I like knowing that others feel like I do too.So,me and the Grinch have alot in common these days.I'm like Scrooge too in that part of me detests christmas.I don't see the point of making everything so glittery,pretty and bright when that's not reality.I think about better ways my money could be spent than on christmas presents,card,paper,etc.
But,then I think of my favorite christmas character,the Prince of Peace.I'll never forget the first time I heard about him.It was just a few years back at my church.My pastor,Chuck,talked about him in great length.Oh,I'd heard his name before.But,I didn't know him and I couldn't picture him.That day,however,I got a real sense of the Prince of Peace.I knew the Prince as my savior,friend,redeemer and Lord.But,I didn't know about the peace He had to give me.I didn't think about his birth as the birth of peace.I learned that day that He could give me peace.Peace eternally that would never be based on my circumstances.Peace that only He could give.That's the greatest christmas present I could ever hope for :) It was around that same time that I heard the song "breath of heaven".I can so relate to Mary in this song.She's been called by God for a purpose.She's scared,excitetd,anxious and humbled all at the same time.What should be a GREAT time for her is a time of anxiety. She has no one to turn to except God.Joseph couldn't possibly understand her emotions.She also seems to be in need of peace.So,I've introduced Scrooge and the Grinch to the Prince of Peace and Mary.That's how I'll get through Christmas.That's how I'll remember what christmas is truly about.It's how I can remain peaceful during this crazy time.

While I'm at it : )

2007-11-29T21:18:00.000-06:00

Here's one of my current fave songs :) I had the pleasure of singing this in a production about 4 years ago. I love it ! This is the only video of it I could find.But I think it shows the fun nature of a great classic.Just in case you're wondering my one and only ALL TIME favorite christmas song is "O Come All Ye Faithful" but there are soooo many good ones to choose from. Share with me any videos or the name of your favorite christmas song.
Hope you have a VERY Blessed Christmas season !!!!!!

Little Drummer Boy

2007-11-29T19:49:00.000-06:00

(My all time favorite christmas song is "The Little Drummer Boy".It's always spoken to my heart and I'm not sure why.I read a fellow blogger's description of this beautiful song and COMPLETELY agree with her.I am SOOOOO grateful for her sharing her heart about this song.So,I'm sharing it with you as it expresses what this song means to not only me but many others too ! )

Come, they told me (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
A new-born King to see (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
Our finest gifts we bring (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
To lay before the King (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum
rum-pa-pa-pum, rum-pa-pa-pum)
So to honor Him (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
When we come

Baby Gesu (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
I am a poor boy, too (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
I have no gift to bring (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
That's fit to give a King (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum
rum-pa-pa-pum, rum-pa-pa-pum)
Shall I play for you (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
On my drum?

Mary nodded (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
The ox and lamb kept time (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
I played my drum for Him (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
I played my best for Him (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum
rum-pa-pa-pum, rum-pa-pa-pum)
Then, He smiled at me (pa-rum-pa-pa-pum)
Me and my drum

The first verse of the song basically sets the stage and this young boy was told that these people were traveling to see a newborn baby who would someday be a king. People are bringing all sorts of gifts to honor him.

Now this is when the song gets really interesting!

"Baby Gesu, I am a poor boy too, I have no gift to bring that's fit to give a king" The kid identifies with the babe because he sees Him as "poor". He's born in a stable, wrapped in cloth amongst the beasts of burden, and it's cold. The boy probably thinks that this kid is in need of some of the gifts that are being given to him, yet, because he is a "poor boy too", he didn't bring anything. He didn't bring anything at all that would be worthy to give a king. I wonder, was the boy embarrassed? Was he curious as to what the fuss was all about? Maybe he felt somewhat self-conscious that all these people were there bearing gifts, and he had not one thing to give. Did the boy feel ashamed? Unworthy perhaps? Do you ever feel that way? Do you ever feel unworthy..unfit to see the King?

Imagine that...having nothing to give Him. We do have NOTHING to give Him that He has not already given everything to us! But, there is one thing we can give Him. The one thing we can give to God that He doesn't first give to us is praise and worship. So, the boy stands before the baby in a manger, with no gift to give Him, and asks him "shall I play for you on my drum?"

I had to stop the player at this point! Think about this...The kid says he has "nothing", but he has everything God has gifted him with. The kid plays a mean drum! So, what does he do with the gift God gave him? He gives it right back to God! I LOVE THAT! God gave us all gifts...we are supposed to give them back to Him! It is called worship!

I restart the song where we left off. So now what is the answer? Can he play his drum? Here is this tired mother who just hours ago gave birth to a seven pound, ten ounce baby (Obgyn 1:1) and here comes this dirty, poor, young boy asking to play a drum. It is quiet. The babe is resting, the mother is still and kindly accepting the gifts coming to him from the respectful visitors, the animals are hushed and the night is still. All that is heard is the crackle of the fire warming the area and casting a flickering, dim light on the people, and here comes a boy and a DRUM! A drum! I'm sure Mary was thrilled with the idea of him banging a drum! Imagine a kid coming to play a drum at the next baby shower you attend! Drums are not usually welcome at those events! LOL

The next verse is one verse that blows me away...Mary nodded. This is a nod of affirmation from a tender-hearted mother, and then the boy begins to play. Creation joined in when The ox and lamb kept time. (Psalm 96:9 "Worship the LORD in the splendor of his holiness; tremble before him, all the earth.") The moment was filled with praise and worship because one young boy played his drum, offering the gift God gave him back to His Lord. The Little Drummer Boy was the first worship leader!

I played my drum for Him, I played my best for Him! That's all the kid knew to do! He gave it his everything too and here is where the music really begins to crescendo. The animals have joined in, the people bearing gifts are listening and clapping maybe and tapping their feet to the sound of the drum. The music continues to build to an intense climax and then the drumming stops. It ends suddenly with a decrescendo, a brummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that fades away into silence. The little drummer boy stops playing.

Now the great pause!

Silence...for just a moment.

What transpires in that moment? The boy has just offered his best performance on his drum. Was it enough? Was it enough to please the king...the tiny baby lying before him? There is anticipation in the air...the animals are quiet, the gift-bearing crowd is awaiting the next moment, wondering if the boy's gift of drumming had any impact at all? Everyone is still and quiet waiting for something...anything...to happen next. Then....

(slightly slower tempo here to contrast the climax of the drummer's offering.)

He smiled at me,

Me and my drum.

That's the line that gets me every time! I can hardly listen and not have tears well up.

"Well done my good and faithful servant" is what that says to me!

The Little Drummer Boy is such an impacting story to me, and I enjoy the vocal interpretation by the Harry Simeone Chorale to help convey the tenderness, majesty, mercifullness and joy of this story. We come to the Lord with all we have, which without Him, is nothing. We deserve nothing. Yet, he gives. He gives us all we have. He gave us His One and Only Son, who died and was raised. We praise Him for that. We worship Him. We are to worship Him with everything that He gave us...our heart, soul, mind and strength! And a drum...or whatever else He has gifted you with! When you do that...He will smile at you. So, play your drum!

Breaking News........

2007-11-26T15:03:00.000-06:00

I'm home sick today and watching tv while sleeping,eating chicken noodle soup and just overall resting. All day long it seems to be one breaking story after another.
They have identified the girl who was found dead in a suitcase and charged her mother (of all people).An NFL player shot in an apparent robbery attempt in his own home.A 9 year old accused of shooting at 2 people.A mall shooting outside of Atlanta.
Now,I'm not so niave to know that things like this happen on a daily basis.
That's the whole point of my thought today.Since when did these kind of things become the norm? When did we quit caring about life? What has changed in the past few years that these things were unheard of by people my parents age? at least not on a daily basis.My personal conviction is when did my heart become so desensitized to it? Why is my heart not just grieving in agony over these situations like my Father's is?
I don't ever want these things to seem the norm to me even if they are.

My Thanksgiving List

2007-11-22T10:40:00.001-06:00

As promised,I am writing down a Thanksgiving List.I relate it to a christmas wish list BUT don't want to devalue it's meaning.I think Thanksgiving gets a bum rap at times because it's often viewed as the prelude to Christmas.I will admit that I picked out a few things for Christmas last night.HOWEVER,I have resisted the urge to pull out my tree and hang up the things I got last night until after Thanksgiving.I don't want to casually let this holiday pass by. I've got LOTS to be thankful for and I want to spend today doing what I'm supposed to,being thankful :) So,I thought a good way for me to express them would be to write them down.I encourage you as well every day to find something you're thankful for not just on Thanksgiving. It really helps to keep things in perspective and it will help you acknowlege the Lord who provide them all to you !!!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone and may God bless you :)

Alicia's ThankFul List......

1) Wonderful,Merciful Savior

I can't begin to explain how my being a christian has not only saved me for eternally but affected my daily life. God has been my friend,confidant,redeemer,comforter,provider,encourager,etc when no one else could be
Also,He pursues me in relationship and I'm so thankful for that.He could not have given us His Word and just left it to us to figure things out.however,He did give us His Word and His Spirit to help us.God loves me and for that I am thankful !!!!

2) Family

Of course,I am thankful for my family.I have great parents and an amazing sister.Also,I have the greatest aunts,uncles and cousins.I truly am blessed with such a tight knit family.I'm thankful to have a grandmother still living who can call me to talk on the phone and who I get to see oftten.I'm thankful for my other grandparents who had a big impact on my life growing up who I have GREAT memories of.
I'm thankful for a Godfearing and loving family.I know that lots of people aren't raised this way and I dont' take that lightly.God blessed me with the great family I have.

3)Family Examples

I have several families in my life that have impacted me tremendously.I've learned so much from them and I am so grateful to them.Some I still have in my life and others have gone but left footprints in my life.Some have adopted me as thier own and others have been generous to a young single girl.However,they impacted my life I have never forgotten them,the things they did and the lessons I learned

4)Friends

Wow! where would I be without my friends? I learned a long time ago that God was hand picking my friends.I know this because of how they've come and gone,put up with me and impacted my life beyond words. I am so grateful that God works in my life through my friends.My friends have been great influences on me and have remained true.I have several friends from my childhood,high school and college years still now.My friends are not only friends who I laugh,play and cry with but they are great godly examples and bless me more than they'll every know

5) Provision

By the "world's" standards,I may not have all that much.i don't have an amazing job,live in a big city,have all the latest technology or a cadillac escalade.
But,i've got sooooo much more than that.I've got more than I'll ever need and I have more than alot of people on this Earth.I never go hungry,I have a bed to sleep on and I have a roof over my head.I have a job which means money and I have heat/air.
Yes,I do have more than just these things but I want to focus on the basics. Because,as long as I have those i am good :) and i'm better off than alot of people.
God is my provision and provides for me daily !! I don't want to forget this either.
I could easily be out on the street homeless or living in a country with very little or no drinking water.May I remember that when I go to my sink this morning to wash my face,brush my teeth and the water just flows and flows

6)Music. God has blessed us with our voices and instruments that we can use to praise Him.Numerous times music has encouraged me or been my outlet of praise.So,i'm thankful for music.

7)church family. I love the church I am currently attending. I am blessed by the values it holds and the example of the 1st century church that it is.

8)technology. I couldn't do my job nor keep up with people as easily as I do if it wasn't for cell phones,computers,etc. i'm also thankful for technology in regards to the research it allows.I recently participated in a study at Vanderbilt that gave me some very valuable medical information.This could not have happened without technology.

9)creeks. I just had to throw this in there.I love creeks of all shapes and sizes.Ask anyone who knows me very well and they can tell you.I have to stop and admire any and all creeks.I just think they're such a cool gift from God. Of course,I can appreciate all nature but there's just something about creeks (especially when I see ducks in them ! )

10)art. I have a dear friend who is an artist by trade and I've really come to appreciate art because of her.Not only is she amazingly talented but I've learned soooo much about the fine details of art.I can hardly pass any art up (paintings,pottery,etc) without stopping to notice the details and think about the artist's time and sweat that went into it.

As you can see,I could go on and on. The whole point is to be able to say and write down things you are thankful for. We are truly blessed but it's often so hard not to focus on that when we have other things going on in our lives.Life is hard,I know it,but it's also not as bad as we tend to think it is.So,today be thankful and let that become a part of your every day life and not just once a year :)

Alicia

enter His gates with thanksgiving

2007-11-21T21:17:00.000-06:00

(Again,stolen from my dear friend Ann.She's such a gifted writer ! Tomorrow,I promise an original :) I will be sharing my thanksgiving list.So,stay tuned......)

I loved this message, as I prayed for a word today to minister to my heart, who better for the Lord to send a word from but Francis? I know it will minister to many. We must give thanks in every situation, in every relationship, in every storm. Lord let your joy be our strength. Bring reconciliation Lord where it's needed, comfort those of us who are facing the holidays in a place of dividedness in families, natural or spiritual. Heal wounds, bring forgiveness, Holy Spirit be our comforter. Give us your unconditional love for one another. Thank you so much for every single person you have placed in my life for me to love with your heart. Give me new ways to show my gratitude for them. Thank you for giving us our breath, our lives. I want to be like you Jesus, use me Lord. Love you so much.

Enter Their Gates With Thanksgiving
By Francis Frangipane

For the last several messages, the Holy Spirit has been urging us to deal with issues of the heart. We've focused on issues like cold love, anger, grumbling and betrayal. Now, I'd like to share what I believe is a means to discovering the life of God. I am speaking of possessing a thankful heart. It is truly a place of immunity from the demonic and fleshly storms that come our way in life. Of course, there are some people that test not only our character but also our sanity. I remember visiting a church and seeing a sign in the pastor's office over the door. It
read, "Everyone who walks through this door makes me happy: some when they
enter the room and others when they leave."

Well, that's one way to keep our spirits up, but it's not exactly what I mean. I'm saying we can be thankful that God is with us no matter who walks through the door. In fact, the Bible tells us to "rejoice always . . . [and] in everything give
thanks." (1 Thess. 5:16, 18). The Word doesn't say thank God for everything,
but thank Him in everything. In every battle there is a place where we can
find God. In every conflict there exists a spiritual means to ascend into
God's presence, where we can ride out the storm. A thankful spirit sustains
us when we otherwise would faint. It makes us alive to the awareness of
God's nearness. The truth is, that no matter what trial we are in, God is
there with us. A thankful spirit acknowledges Him, identifying His blessings
and appropriating His gifts; gratitude escorts us into the presence of God.

Even Trouble-Makers
The value of gratitude goes beyond transforming our hearts, it can also
transform the people who are near us. Certainly, we can see what's wrong
with people, but have we ever actually thanked God for them, even the
trouble-makers? You see, without them, we would never mature spiritually!
They thrust us out of ourselves, causing us to rely more completely upon the
help of God. Yet, gratitude is actually a form of spiritual warfare,
especially when it comes to healing human relationships. True, there are
times when, for a variety of reasons, people are not open to us and they
shun our initiatives for peace or reconciliation. However, I believe if we
were more genuinely appreciative of them, in time they might relax their
guard and open up. The value of gratitude goes beyond transforming our
hearts, as we appreciate others, we can also transform those near us.

You see, not only is Jerusalem surrounded by walls and gates, our souls also
are protected by barriers; we too have walls and gates surrounding our
lives. We have "eye gates" and "ear gates" that allow influences into our
soul. But we are not open to everyone. We've learned to protect ourselves
instinctively from emotionally damaging people. On the other hand, the words
of loving, appreciative people inspire us to drop our guard and let them in.
Just as God requires we enter His gates with thanksgiving, so it is with
human nature, for we are made in God's image. If we expect others to open up
to us, it is important we express our gratitude for the good we see in them.

Of course, people do not have to be perfect for us to appreciate godly
elements in their character or personality. When I voice my gratitude for a
specific quality or virtue that I see in another, I affirm and strengthen
that virtue. By so doing, I also gain their trust.

For example, if you're not thankful for your teenagers, your disappointment
with them will push them away from you. The Bible says that a "false balance
is an abomination to the Lord" (Prov. 11:1). Sometimes we can be so focused
on the negatives in our kids that we drive them away. We communicate with
anger and disgust, weary of the battle we've been having with them. Yet, if
we take time and sincerely communicate the things we appreciate about them
(and those things are there. You must just find them), your teens will relax
their guard.

Parents, as an experiment, dismiss for several weeks the obligatory
criticisms you usually express when you and your kids are together. Instead,
tell them the things you appreciate about them. You see, each of us needs to
know we are appreciated at least for something. Even God responds positively
to praise! Such reinforcement empowers our desires to do well and increases
our sense of self-worth and value.

There is something like radar inside the human heart that senses the
displeasure of others. Displeasure and ingratitude are like a repellant to
human relationships.

Acceptance: Oxygen For The Soul
Because God has designed us to be social creatures, we each enter the world
with an innate desire for acceptance. By appreciating our loved ones, we
affirm and help settle their quest for acceptance, without which they might
otherwise be compelled toward ungodly associations. Just as when property
appreciates it increases in value, so when we appreciate our loved ones,
destructive tendencies created by self-hatred and fear of rejection diminish
proportionally. By appreciating what we see as right in people, their soul
nurses on the life of love and acceptance.

There is something like radar inside the human heart that senses the
displeasure of others. Displeasure and ingratitude are like a repellant to
human relationships. People think, if I can't measure up --- if you can't
see anything good in me --- I'll go where people will accept me as I am.
Thanksgiving brings our loved ones closer to us rather than driving them
away.

At the same time, I know people in marriages that, every time they get
together, they wind up discussing what's wrong with their relationship. Why
not take a few weeks and shift the focus to appreciating what's right in
each other?

Some of us have been ungrateful, gossiping and grumbling. So, for those in
particular, I'm calling for a thirty-day fast. From what? Let's fast from
ingratitude. For the next thirty days, each time you would have complained,
grumbled or been ungrateful about something or someone, focus instead on
things for which you are thankful. Make a list of at least seven people in
your world that you know fairly well and write down seven things in each of
their lives for which you are appreciative. Over the next two or three
weeks, tell them how much you appreciate this or that quality you've
observed in them. Finally, let's see if most of these very people do not
begin to automatically open up when you draw near; let's see if you can't
enter their gates with thanksgiving.

When is God not faithful ?

2007-11-13T20:21:00.001-06:00

***** the following is a stolen blog from my dear friend Anne.I've been struggling lately and having moments where I didn't "feel" God.So,this was an encouragement to me.
Hopefully,someone else reading it will be encouraged as well :) *********************

Tonight I just want to thank God for His faithfulness. It's been a rough few weeks as God has allowed some ministries I've been involved in and cared much about to end. He has brought new ones to the horizon, but as sure as His Spirit lives within me, it would be wrong to think I don't grieve when things He once called me to come to an end. But I always go back to the question, when is God not faithful?

We all have disappointments in ministry, we all have times when we fail. We get hurt or we hurt others, we patch things up or it's made clear we are supposed to move on. Hopefully we always forgive and we are always thankful God even used us in the first place. The ministry of intercession is a privilege and comes at a cost, but is nothing compared to the cost Jesus paid for my life. When is He not faithful?

The truth is God allows what God allows. There is no way around it. So I totally trust the Father when He gives, and when He takes away. In our pain, in our disappointment, in our failure we may not understand it. But when is God not faithful? When is He not the loving Father who acts on our behalf?

I have watched for the last two years as someone in my family goes through excruciating heartbreak and suffering. I have watched her cling to God, I have seen her fight with everything in her, literally from the floor of her house, to move into His plan, His will. And I have spoken the words over and over to her, when is God not faithful?

Some of us have little trials, like me, some of us have large, like her. When does God not see and when is He not faithful?

I wish I had something more profound to write, something more poetic. But there is nothing more than this. He is faithful. He who began a good work in you will carry it to completion. Phillippians 1:6.

So how can I not praise Him? In doing ministry, I think we can lose sight of the fact that we are dearly loved children of God the Father. That's a huge fact! The Father doesn't judge us. John 5:22. He doesn't care about our successes or failures. He wants our hearts, wholly. There is comfort in that, there is safety in that. Rest in that.

Offer to God thanksgiving,
And pay your vows to the Most High.
"Call upon Me in the day of trouble;
I will deliver you, and you shall
glorify Me."

Whoever offers praise glorifies Me;
And to him who orders his conduct aright
I will show the salvation of God."
Psalm 50: 14-15,23

What is my job?

2007-11-07T08:54:00.000-06:00

I had a couple of unique experiences yesterday. I had a board of directors meeting at Healthy Start.This is a program ran by West Tn Health Care that serves first time moms.They work with mothers until the children are age 3.It's a voluntary program for the moms but it's obvious that they learn alot of great things.In meeting the staff of Healthy Start,it was very obvious that they love people and love their clients. My job keeps me so busy that i don't always get to really know my clients in their own enviorment like i wish I could.So,this was just a reminder to me to try to do as much as i can to have a relationship with my clients along with helping them physically and financially.Then,i got back to my office and i had a co-worker come to talk to me.She is having some family issues and wanted some "expert" advice.I was very honored that she came to me as I adore this lady but don't get to talk with her much.So,i was glad she came to me.It just seemed odd as I had just had on my mind about wanting to be there more for people and she came to me.I recognized this "Kairos" (see my blog name) and took full advantage of it.
I was so glad that I had that time with her.So,I feel renewed and refreshed today as I begin another day at work.What I do DOES make a difference even though I'm usually too busy to see it :) i'm also reminded of the verse in 1 Corinthians 10:31 "so wether you eat or drink or whatever you do,do it all for the glory of God"

how are you walking?

2007-10-30T18:32:00.000-06:00

i've struggled lately with the idea of having a DAILY quiet time.I wasn't convinced that it had to be daily.i coudln't find in scripture where Jesus retreated daily.So,why should I? As long as I'm having frequent quiet times aren't I accomplishing the same purpose? I've come to find that I was struggling more with the quality of my quiet time but just masking it as something else.I can tell you that I MOST certainly believe a christian should have a DAILY quiet time.I've really come to realize it's importance.I was reading a friend's blog today and he discussed this very issue.He expressed it so beautifully that I thought I would "steal" from him.....

It's like the rudder of a ship. Imagine yourself at the wheel of a large ship, charged with guiding this vessel to a specific destination thousands of miles away. As you pilot the ship and try to stay on course, the best way is to make small course corrections every couple of miles. Such it is with being consistent in the Word of God. A main reason (I believe) we need to daily read our Bibles is so truth can make small course corrections in our lives as we steer towards the final goal.

Imagine what happens when you only make course corrections every week or at irregular times. You tend to find yourself making large zigs and zags in order to stay true to the course. I always struggled following God closely when my daily walk with Christ was erratic, inconsistent, and haphazard.

Sweet little baby boy : )

2007-10-27T18:23:00.000-06:00

I came across a blog today of a lady who was telling of the birth of her child.Her blog was quite revealing and beautifully expressed. She included some picture s that I thought were some of the most beautiful I've ever seen. This little boy was born at 22 weeks stillborn. I wanted to share this though because it shows just how formed this baby was even at 22 weeks of birth. THe mother describes it best "He weighed 1 lb., .8 oz. and was 11" long. He looked like a tiny, miniature baby doll. He had tiny fingernails and tiny toenails and tiny earlobes... he was perfectly formed."
You can't help but acknowledge and thank God for creation when you see pictures like these.

"You gave me life and showed me kindess,and in your providence watched over my spirit" Job 10:12

It's a cold,cold world out there

2007-10-23T17:43:00.001-06:00

Been a hard one, Been a bad one
Been a tough one, Been a sad one
It's been one of those days that keeps chipping away at my heart
Nothing new here, It's what I do here
its a stereotypical day, in the life
I'm surrounded by all of the pain and the strife
but I know it's alright, woah oh

Chorus:
Cause it's only the world i'm living in
It's only today i've been given
There ain't no way i'm giving in
Cause it's only the world (oh cause it's only the world)
I know the best is still yet to come
Cause even when my days in the world are done
There's gonna be so much more than only the world for me
do do do do do do do do do, yeah its only the world

Verse 2:
Anybody can you hear me?
Do you feel me? I mean, do you feel me?
I know I'm not the only one wearing the weight of this world
We got problems (said it's alright)
Just remember (yeah, it's alright)
Take a good look around we're just stuck on the ground for a little while
Don't it make you smile

Chorus:
Cause it's only the world i'm living in (Yeah)
It's only today i've been given(Yeah)
There ain't no way i'm giving in
Oh Cause it's only the world (only the world)
I know the best is still yet to come
Cause even when my days in the world are done
There's gonna be so much more than only the world for me
do do do do do do do do do, yeah its only the world (Yeah)

do do do do do do do do do, yeah its only the world(Oh it's only the world)

Bridge:
Heaven is a place where the tears on every face will be wiped away
Oh And I can't wait to go, but for now it's enough to know
This is only temporary this is only, Yeah, Alright!

Chorus:
Cause it's only the world i'm living in
It's only the day i've been given
There ain't no way i'm giving in
Cause it's only the world (only the world)
I know the best is still yet to come
Cause even when my days in the world are done
There's gonna be so much more than only the world for me

Cause it's only the world i'm living in
It's only tod i've been given
There ain't no way i'm giving in
Cause it's only the world (only the world)
I know the best is still yet to come
Cause even when my days in the world are done
There's gonna be so much more than only the world for me
(So much more than only the world, yeah)

Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.(Psalms 90:2)

My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.(John 17:5)

Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.(1 John 5:5)

the legacy continues..........

2007-10-21T19:12:00.000-06:00

In my family,we have a legacy of aunts.My mom's aunt are very close to her thus leaving me with some amazing great aunts.My dad also had some great aunts in his family.They've since passed on but even I knew 2 of them.Then,i have aunts in my life on both sides of my family that have truly impacted my life.My aunt Ann gave me my first cross necklace when I was baptized.I still have that necklace to this day (22 years later).My mom gave her nieces cross necklaces as well when they were baptized.My aunt Sherry has played a big part in my life despite living in Florida.She has always made a purposeful effort to keep in touch with me via e-mail,phone,letters,etc as I grew up.Every christmas we'd always get a big box of presents she'd shipped and called her on Christmas Day.we also in turn had sent them a box and my mom always made sugar cookies for them.So,my mom was also a very involved aunt.so,as you can see,aunts play a VERY big role in my family. That explains part of my excitement about being Aunt "Shesha" to Madelyn and Anna. Today,something else happened that just made me sit back and remember what a privilege it is to be an aunt.The picture on this blog is madelyn wearing my flip flops.she carried them around with her all day today.She kept putting them on and walking around in "shesha's" shoes like a big girl :)What makes this so special to
me is that I used to do this at my aunt Ann's house.she worked in boutiques most of her life and is certainly "diva".So,going to her house always produced a plethora of 4 inch heels and TONS of costume jewelry.I remember the countless times I'd parade around her house in her high heel shoes.Boy did I think I was the stuff !!!! I have these special memories even today.So,it just really caused me to pause when I saw Madelyn do the same thing today.It just made it hit home that I've been given the title "aunt" and what a privilege it is :) Guess I need to do some MAJOR shoe shopping and make sure I'm stocked up on some 4 inch pumps !!!!!!

P.s. Forgive the blurry shots but she wouldn't be still long enough for me to get a good one :)

Books a Million : )

2007-10-17T19:49:00.001-06:00

Hey all ! i have been really into reading and buying books lately.My place is beginning to look like Books a Million :) I just picked up Jenna Bush's book "Ana's story".I'm really excited about reading it.Most of the books i've been reading and buying lately however are spiritual in nature.i'm enjoying them all so far.So,I wanted to ask you "What is your favorite book?" "What books do you recommend to me?". i'd love to know my friends' tastes and various ideas.I know you have them :)

I'm in the money !!!!!!

2007-10-17T19:46:00.000-06:00

********stolen from another blog because I really like how his perspective.The thing that hit me was realizing just how rich I am as an American.I'm in the money !!!! :) **************

This morning on my way class, I was listening to a radio program where two pundits were discussing capital gains taxes. Exciting, I know. One thing that was said struck me. Since 1980 American wealth has grown from $30,000,000,000 to $70,000,000,000. I typed out all the zeros purposefully — just look at the staggering amount of wealth we have in this country. We live in the wealthiest society in the history of the world, and the last twenty-seven years have been the greatest single societal increase in wealth in history.

Another of the points made was that as the wealth of Americans has increased, so has expendable income — that is, money which is discretionary and not alloted for specific expenses. I am not an economics whiz, but this seems like a common sense approach to expenses:

1. Mandatory — things you must have to survive, such as food, shelter and clothing

2. Necessary — things you do not intrinsically need for survival, but are necessary for the functioning of a modern-day life, such as a car and gas (if you don’t live in a city), various types of insurance, etc

3. Discretionary — things that might be helpful, useful, or fun, but that are not mandatory or necessary, such as microwave, a computer, TV, etc

Obviously, we will have to spend money, and most of us do not have uncountable riches to spread to the masses. However, if you are an American, especially in the middle-class or higher, you are filthily and unavoidably rich. More so than 99.9% of the history of the world’s population. This means that we ought to be able to survive and thrive (if not “materially”) on much less than we do. There are probably dozens of ways we can pare down our mandatory, necessary and discretionary expenses, freeing up funds for the good of God’s Kingdom.

Take for example a very simple budgetary example:

Say Bob earns $1200 a month. Here is Bob’s budget:

Tithe = $100

Rent = $350

Food = $150

Gas = $100

Car Insurance = $50

Health Insurance = $50

Utilities = $50

Cell Phone = $50

Internet/Cable = $50

Savings = $250

Bob wants to know how to live on a “wartime budget”. I think there are two ways to do it:

1. Cut down on the quality/expense of his mandatory and necessary expenses. He could eat out less, or drive a cheaper car that would not cost as much to insure.

2. Cut down on the quantity of his discretionary expenses. He could cancel his cable and internet connection for example

We need to look at our budgets for ways that we can pare down our expenses, with the purpose of using our wealth for the Kingdom. I myself am only beginning to think through these issues, but I know that God will hold me (and us) accountable for what we have been given. I want the Slavich family to use its wealth and all of its resources in a selfless and non-money-treasuring way.

May the Lord help us and be gracious to us.

A long needed update

2007-10-10T20:09:00.000-06:00

I haven't blogged about myself lately so here it is :) I'm really excited at the moment because I had a VERY VERY productive "paperwork" day at work today.Paperwork is a HUGE part of my job and it's a never ending task.every wednesday is paperwork day.however,it doesn't always mean it's a day of quite and free of distractions.So,I'm very happy that I got LOTS accomplished today. I have some great people in my office too.I fuss about work alot but I have some great co-workers. I'm blessed that I do since I spend so much time with them. I've been a little worried lately but I seem to be tired/worn out all the time.however,the last few days have been better so that's good.I have a check up with my MD next week too.I've been reading ALOT lately and am so excited about some of the books I'm reading and will be reading.I'm finishing up "down came the rain" by Brooke Shields.I have to admit I thought it would be a "so so" book but it has really been interesting.She doesn't hide any of her struggles and you read the book feeling like you're talking to your best friend. I made lemon pepper chicken tonight and it was GOOD,if I say so myself.If you know me,you'll be totally surprised about this next statement.I actually ate grilled squash,asparagus and zucchini the other night.I'm so excited.I always wish that I liked more vegetables/fruits than I do.In the past year or so,I've found that my taste buds have changed some and I'm learning to like cucumbers,cabbage
and the above mentioned grilled veggies.I probably wouldn't eat them unless they were grilled but hey,that's still healthy for you.I'm really learning about healthy eating and treating my body like the temple the Bible tells me it is.
There's not much else to tell right now.I love visiting my nieces when I can.Anna is growing and changing every day it seems like.Each new pic I get she looks like a different child.Madelyn has my heart of course and is just cute as a button.She's really verbal and interactive.She's a little "diva" too.She knows what she wants and gets it most of the time.She's a good child too which is great.She really doesn't throw tamtrums or say anything mean,ugly,etc. I'm so proud of my sister and the great mommy she's become.
I love this time of year.I'm ready for the cooler temps and breezy wind :)
If you're reading this,take a minute and say hi.I never know you have visited my site unless you comment on my blog. Hugs and love to all !!!!!!!

I love girlfriend time : )

2007-10-04T20:07:00.003-06:00

It dawned on me today just how much I've come to enjoy my girlfriends and girlfriend time.There's nothing like it !!!!! I am very blessed to have a mom,sister,coworkers,lifelong friends and church members that I get to have girlfriend time with.Some of it is just a time of hanging out and other times is accountability and prayer.I have some AMAZING ladies in my life.I am really blessed :)
My girlfriends love me for me and I love the nicknames,inside jokes,etc we have.My girlfriends have shaped who I am today and I'm so grateful for that.Many have come and gone in my life but each one has made an impact on my life. God knows just what we need,doesn't He? So,to all my girlfriends out there,I love you all !!!!! I can't wait until our next get together.From mexican,shopping,prayer,cards online,long distance calls,sushi with Shanon to just a "how are ya"email or call,I love it all. Take care my sweet girlfriends and keep in touch !!!!!

If this is marriage,I want to remain single

2007-10-02T20:34:00.000-06:00

Over the past almost year now,God has really been showing me alot about marriage.It started with my parents separation.Then,it seemed like every week,I was hearing of another marriage in trouble.The issues ranged from not spending time together,one or both partners feeling unappreciated to affairs.My heart has just been broken for these people.Some have been people I love dearly and can't imagine their pain.Others have been people in ministry who have lost jobs,reputations,etc.I am so thankful that as I've heard about these issues,God has graciously whispered truth into my Spirit.He has shown me what He says about marriage and what a true marriage is about.Of course,we're all human and have temptations.I'm not placing blame.But,it does seem that we've either forgotten about God's design for marriage or just give in to temptation,selfishness,etc.I can't even begin to fathom what it's like to know my spouse cheated on me or doesn't want to spend time with me.I can't begin to imagine how "trapped" so many spouses must feel.But,I do know about my God.I know that God is my Healer,Restorer,Comforter,Sustainer,Friend,Father,Lover,Provider and Savior.I pray that God will be present in every marriage in this world.i pray that God will be exactly what each spouse needs.I pray for marriage and God's will for marriage.I pray for my future husband.I pray that we will have a godly marriage that will be free of so many of the issues that so many other couples have had to face.Until I met him though,i'll just stay single.Marriage is hard enough with the right person so no need to make it any harder :)

You know you're from Florida if........

2007-09-22T17:50:00.000-06:00

(this is for my Florida family :) I miss being there and especially the palm trees!!!!!!!!)

You know you're a Floridian if....

..Socks are only for bowling.

..You never use an umbrella because you know the rain will be over in five minutes.

..A good parking place has nothing to do with distance from the store, but everything to do with shade.

..Your winter coat is made of denim.

..You can tell the difference between fire ant bites and mosquito bites.

..You're younger than thirty but some of your friends are over 65.

..Anything under 70 is chilly.

..You pass on the right and honk at the elderly, but pull over for a funeral.

..You've driven through Yeehaw Junction.

..You could swim before you could read.

..You have to drive north to get to The South.

..You know that no other grocery store can compare to Publix.

..Every other house in your neighborhood had blue roofs in 2004-2005.

..You've gotten out of school early on Halloween to trick or treat before it got dark

..You know that anything under a Category 3 just isn't worth waking up for.

..You dread lovebug season.

..You are on a first name basis with the Hurricane list. They aren't Hurricane Charley, Hurricane Frances...but Charley, Frances, Ivan and Jeanne.

..You know what a snowbird is.

..You know why flamingos are pink.

..You think a six-foot alligator is actually pretty average.

You were twelve before you ever saw snow, or you still haven't.

.."Down South" means Key West

.."Panhandling" means going to Pensacola

..You think no-one over 70 should be allowed to drive.

..Flip-flops are everyday wear.

..Shoes are for business meetings and church.

..No, wait, flip flops are good for church too, unless it's Easter or Christmas.

..Sweet tea can be served at any meal.

..An alligator once walked through your neighborhood.

..You smirk when a game show's "Grand Prize" is a trip or cruise to Florida.

..You measure distance in minutes.

..You have a drawer full of bathing suits, and one sweatshirt.

..You get annoyed at the tourists who feed seagulls.

..All the local festivals are named after a fruit.

..A mountain is any hill 100 feet above sea level.

..You think everyone from a bigger city has a northern accent.

..You know the four seasons really are: almost summer, summer, not summer but really hot, and February.

..It's not soda, cola, or pop it's coke, regardless of brand or flavor, "What kinda coke you want?"

..Anything under 95 is just warm.

..You've hosted a hurricane party.

..You go to a theme park for an afternoon, and know when to get on the best rides. (Space Mountain during the Electric Light Parade!)

..You understand the futility of exterminating palmetto bugs.

..You can pronounce Okeechobee, Kissimmee, Ichnatucknee and Withlacoochee .

..You understand why it's better to have a friend with a boat, than have a boat yourself.

..Bumper stickers on the pickup in front of you include: various fish, NRA, NASCAR, Go Gators, and a confederate flag.

..You were 5 before you realized they made houses without pools.

..You were 25 when you first met someone who couldn't swim.

..You get angry when people say "Florida isn't really part of the SOUTH."

..You've worn shorts and used the A/C on Christmas.

..You know what the "stingray shuffle" is, and why it's important!

a new psalm (a stolen poem)

2007-09-16T17:43:00.000-06:00

(I saw this on another myspace page and thought I should share.I'll blog something of my own soon,I promise !!!)

Oh LORD my God

This psalm is to you

In honour of you

And the life you have given

Oh LORD my God

How awesome are your ways

You created me in the palm of your hand

And placed me on this earth

To take part in your plans

Oh LORD my God

How precious is the family you've placed me within

How comforting to know

We all serve you as King

Thank you Oh God

For this journey called life

So uniquely crafted for me to enjoy

And share with those you put in my life

This journey so perfect Oh God

So divinely chosen and prepared

Each road so carefully carved by your hand

With a destiny called heaven

When the journey descends through the valleys

And the road becomes ruttered and worn

You are there beside me picking me up

Beckoning me on.

Thank you Oh God

For the way the valleys

Place perception on life

And make channels for rivers of blessings to flow

The Entertaining Prophet

2007-09-11T18:20:00.000-06:00

(stolen from "hot coffee"'s blog that's so beautifully expressed I had to share)

The Entertaining Prophet

The 33rd chapter of Ezekiel records the following message from the LORD:

"Come on, let's have some fun! Let's go hear the prophet tell us what the LORD is saying! So they come pretending to be sincere and sit before you listening. But they have no intention of doing what I tell them. They express love with their mouths, but their hearts seek only after money. You are very entertaining to them, like someone who sings love songs with a beautiful voice or plays fine music on an instrument. They hear what you say, but they don't do it." (Ezekiel 33:30-33, NLT)

Sometimes is good to read these OT passages and see where we fit in. Do we most resemble Ezekiel, who is proclaiming God's message to an unrepentant people? Or do we resemble the people, who come to hear the prophet because it's entertainment, but have no desire to change their lives?

Often it's both. I've found myself coming to hear a message with no intention of changing. Yet, it's in these moments where we see how dangerous it can be to come to a place where we no longer seek to submit ourselves to God's words. Many times I have been convicted because my heart only seeks entertainment and not application.

The last verse in chapter 33 is striking: God says when the terrible things happen to them (because they refused to listen to God), then they surely will know a prophet has been among them. May we take heed to God today through the various means by which He uses--and not be a people that are resistant, but rather are humble, moldable, and ever-changing to the truth of God's word.